Wednesday, April 16, 2008

a really weird day..

 

there is something really weird going on with me today...

time check now.. 1150pm.. well, this should usually be the time which i will be asleep since i sleep at about 9 and wake up earlier the next day to mug [though i will usually fail and end up sleeping through cuz this few days are really tiring]..well then why am i here? in fact, i have went to bed as usual at 9 plus.. considering that i just reached home and washed up, it was already 9 plus.. so i have slept for like approx 2hours and i am up.. seriously just cannot sleep.. feeling tired of tired.. a really weird feeling..

 

that's not all of my randomness.. upon reaching home and staring at my bed, i yanked the first layer of mattress off and lied it on the floor [after much arrangement of the clothes racks] and slept on the floor.. something which i longed to do for quite sometime but never actually doing it.. makes me wonder why i chose to do it today..

 

what's more.. now that i am awake, i feel hungry.. didnt eat lunch nor dinner.. so i went to cook instant noodles.. something i will not do when i am at home since there are cornflakes and other readied food available.. wow! really quite amazed by the weird me today..

 

lots of work to catch up.. physics SPA is over and glad that it is.. upcoming next is bio SPA.. X.x confidence level: C [in other words, low].. but it can also be termed generally ok.. really pray hard that can get 8 sia.. but judging on the marking style like seriously, really, quite impossible sia.. tutorial time.. =) in the mugging mood but must first finish my 2packets of instant noodles... noodles+vegetable+egg [the danz way.. wink*]

 

on the other random note, weather was really weird too.. was flashing with lightning but no thunder.. was drizzling and was slightly windy.. feeling was great but complex.. guess that was why i was "emo"? and weird today.. shrugs.. never knew weather can affect me that significantly..

 

guess tomorrow will be a really 没精神 day considering my bi clock upset today..

 

time check: 1203am.. wishing everyone great day ahead..

 

发现“蒲公英的约定”多少年后 [还没有一年吧 xP],还是很好听...

 

 

~认真投决定命运的硬币
却不知道到底会去哪里*

*chorus*

Sunday, April 13, 2008

back..

 

been a long time since i last blogged.. well, so back here to clear some dust..

 

looking back, been a long yet fast 9 days since my last post.. long because many many things happened and fast because it just passed in a nick of time..

 

on a random note, have been seeing really "nice" time since the start of the year.. so much so that it becomes kinda scary.. example of nice time wil be like 12:12 or 12:21.. yups.. those that are symmetrical.. just saw 07:07 a moment ago.. wonder if this is symbolic of anything..

 

have been reaching home rather late and been really tired so spent  time writing diary instead both blogging and  making written diary entries..

 

events that occurred:

  • double mock SPAs
  • lots of techrun for guitar concert + actual full dress rehearsal
  • sc investiture
  • pencil lead appeared from swelling [after 10 plus years]
  • buying of sport shoes
  • pw result

 

mock SPAs
currently, the SPA assessments are mainly Skill As. so the both mock SPAs [which were on the same day] were skill A for physics and biology. well, i haven yet to score a decent grade for physics skill A, always stuck with a 4/8 grade.. and actual assessment is this coming tuesday.. O.O by the way, mock SPA was really out of the box, in other words, screwed.
bio spa, on the other hand, is always returned with a lousy grade too. but that's the norm. a "C" grade. quote Dr Yap: if you get a C, you are generally safe. dont worry. ok lo.. a little clueless how to get a better grade anyway.. many many shrugs..

 

techruns and rehearsal
the initial few were really chaotic but the subsequent ones are really a lot better. though i will say that they are all time consuming but they are definitely "must-spend time". hope things will run smoothly on the actual day [like A levels huh?; only the actual event is the most important].. glad that at least i have things to fill up my very long backstage period.. =) it's a form of contribution too right? haha..

 

sc investiture
it ran rather smoothly [glad that it did], besides the point that the balloons dropped in the midst of the event. in 心里难免有些“空虚”.. the same weird feeling as uniform without tie. looking back, have been wearing tie since sec2! haha.. all the best to the new batch of shsc! [tuki tuki, tuki tuki!] ~really corny video.. lolz!! hunting for all the sc photos now..

 

pencil lead appeared from swelling [after 10 plus years]
ok... this is kinda amazing.. when i was about K2, i kicked on to this pencil which was lying on the ground and well, it pierced into my sole and after that, a swelling appeared there. all these times the swell was there and it will hurt when i press it.. must be due to the frequent running [or over running (in bad shoes), hence my shin splint], i notice that the swell is shifting position and it "evolved to become a 水泡 like thing but with a black rim [hard to describe]. then the day after the long day of sc investiture and techrun [being in np booths for like half the day], that swell burst [was really quite gross]. "juice" just kept coming out with a little blood.. and i noticed it only after the whole day when i reached home and finally took off my shoes. so after washing up, i plastered the wound and go to sleep. will see doctor the next day regarding the bad splint so can 顺便 see this lo. upon reaching the doc, and told him about the splint and everything, he got me to go do an x-ray to check if there is a stress fracture [luckily dont have].. and after that, i told him about the swell and started to remove the plaster. AND to my great great surprise, a black thing popped out from the wound [the best description i can think of is like a diglet popping out from a hole]. so i pulled that black thing out and it is a pencil lead. O.O kinda shocked.. lead in my body for 10 over years.. yiwei said i can become lead-man.. lolz.. and then mom said perhaps that is the reason why i eat so much and still so small size.. rofl.. lots of "perhaps"

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paiseh pic kinda bad.. pasted it in my diary book.. it is about 0.7 cm in length.. amazing sia.. got this feeling of 难中祸福.. gain a splint but got rid of a lead in the body.. now foot got a hole.. a black one.. lolz..

 

buying of sport shoes
since was rather free that day, supposed to be a day of break [but doing the x-ray and stuff took up like half the day already], mom accompanied me to get my DECENT sport shoes.. no more china brand? haha.. splint sucks.. makes squatting really painful.. kneeling too. went to novena and there is this shop called the running something.. was thinking how the hell the shops survive when there are so many sports shops in the same place.. velocity is the name of the building [kinda nice too, inline with sporty feel].. went into that shop and they got this "service" which help you pick the shoes that suit you. first they will ask you to take off your shoes and they estimate your arc [and the guy said mine was normal (hope so)], and then pick a few shoes [within budget (shoes there were like around 170!!!!)] and let you test them out on a treadmill. i did also add another criteria of wanting my shoes to be in the shades of blue.. lolz. and that narrowed down to 2 shoes.. couldnt really try out the shoes because i just had a late lunch and the splint. eventually settled on the mizuno pair. it cost a whooping 179.90 bucks.. gosh.. told mom that perhaps should walk around and see if have other pairs but then mom said it's ok, get the first pair to get the feel of THE type of sport shoes then next time can better pick shoes. something like buy the knowledge. luckily have 10percent discount for safra members and 30percent for safra running club. well, i am only a dependent member and definitely not in the running club [omg, cant really imagine a life of just running; i think my lungs will just invert.. rofl] hope that no more splints after this shoe..

 

pw result
aye.. stress was in the air when everyone gathered in the LT. remembered i was still in front asking about some physics doubts and then so many people just flocked in. i was wondering what was happening [didnt know that venue was in LT2], but guessed it when the P and VPs entered.. was really relieved upon seeing the result.. remembered that i dont even know how to read the score mr tang showed me. was reading mr tang's gestures and we all conclude that he wasnt really smiley [remembered his really emo email to all of us].. really responsible and nice teacher.. really couldnt ask for more from an ST.. remembered him meeting us at the mac in bedok.. really a pity that that very spot is currently being demolished. really fond memories.. upon receiving the result.. though i was really relieved [because i told myself that it will not be surprising for me to get a B (or even C) because of the mistiming during OP], didnt feel exactly all great.. was another mixed feeling.. see friends really upset [perfectly understandable] over their results.. well, PW really cost everyone lots of effort, lots of time and lots of sleep.. who will not wish for the best grade? furthermore, with a greater percentage of people scoring the better grade, it just seem like the best possible grade being the norm. well, in my opinion, the grading is definitely not an accurate gauge of one's performance; more of an opinionated conclusion. really too subjective. on the other hand, i have been thinking if one's better grade was made possible with the other's lower grade.. if it is as such, it is really not a healthy competition. some say it is the cruel law of nature for competition to be heartless.. indeed, i am unable to think of an alternative but seriously hope that one will surface.. as a student, i frequently questions my role.. am i so learn as much information as i can or am i suppose to learn how to solve exam questions? both most will say. i do agree but there are times when either has to be forgo due to the lack of time or in the name of competition.. most chooses to be exam oriented.. and i find this choice particularly disturbing..

 

but after all, in this realistic world.. i guess i have to start learning how to better tackle exams...

 

 

 

a really nice duet... really nice..

许愿

梁:我 喜欢回味
记忆的美
让人懂得感谢
古:你 现在让谁
听你喜悦
陪你掉眼泪
嘿 好久不见
合:请你许个愿
古:要感情不再那么容易变
合:让心不被距离拉得太遥远
古:我寄了张卡片
合:地址是感觉
收件人叫永远
像是你又递来一杯热咖啡
生活有了你的温柔调味
合:画你的笑颜
写祝福的留言
请把我的名字默念一百遍
好梦就会趁你睡醒实现
古:我 习惯感觉
记忆的美
能让温柔不灭
梁:你 现在让谁
吻你的脸
疼你的一切
嘿 好久不见
梁:要感情不再那么容易变
梁:我寄了张卡片
谢谢使用

 

 

 

~我 习惯感觉
记忆的美
能让温柔不灭*

Friday, April 4, 2008

slow-ed down..

 

still in school.. waiting for the hardworking people running.. talking about running.. i cant run now.. shin splint says mr tang... worse scenario: fractured shin. >.< really scary.. and narfa is jus this coming monday.. gosh.. i dun think i can make it..

 

results are not showing.. all the hard work put in but well, multiplier's effect? it will take some time for it to be exhibited ba.. breaking for a weekend.. but it is already clotted with a seeming infinite homework..

 

need to get myself a good pair of sports shoes..

 

all my subjects are just not meeting the line.. or perhaps just barely passing it..  aye.. i know mrs chan.. i am really doing something about it.. i guess i must take care of myself.. if not what;s happening to me now may just replay: breaking down and not performing at the actual test date due to physical limitations..

 

well, life's really tiring... but moving on..

 

haiz..

 

加油z!

 

here is something for every A lvl kid out there:

 

 

happy mugging!!

 

 

 

 

~迎风撑着眼帘用力不眨眼*

Thursday, April 3, 2008

累之后还是累..

 

did not come online these few days... been all weight down with homework.. guitar concert coming.. my tone still sucks.. omg.. my whole list of homework.. argh. all the failed tests..

 

just received the conformation for A level's subjects.. a wooping 550 bucks.. method of payment: GIRO.. i will always be in debts of my parents sia.. all the troubles i have caused.. must really work hard and make their efforts worthwhile sia.. straight As seem so far away..

 

felt like writing a will a few days ago. wonder why.. totally random..

 

feeling totally weak.. my body mechanisms are failing me.. problems everywhere.. head to toe..

 

 

 

got this great song.. credits to yiwei!

 

歌曲:你那么爱她 - 李圣杰/林隆璇
歌手:李圣杰
璇:直到爱消失 你才懂得去珍惜每个
美好风景 只是他早已离去
杰:直到你想通 他早已经不再对你留恋
最后的你 开始了一段挣扎
璇:你那么爱她 为什么不把她留下
为什么不说心里话 你深爱她 这是每个人都知道 啊~
杰:你那么爱她 为什么不把她留下
是不是你有深爱的两个她
所以你不想再让自己无法自拔

璇:直到爱消失 你才懂得去珍惜每个
美好风景 只是他早已离去
杰:直到你想通 他早已经不再对你留恋
最后的你 开始了一段挣扎
璇:你那么爱她 为什么不把她留下
为什么不说心里话 你深爱她 这是每个人都知道 啊~
杰:你那么爱她 为什么不把她留下
是不是你有深爱的两个她
所以你不想再让自己 无法自拔

杰:呜~~
璇:你那么爱她 为什么不把她留下
为什么不说心里话 你深爱她
合:这是每个人都知道 啊~
杰:你那么爱她 为什么不把她留下
合:是不是你有深爱的两个她
杰:所以你不想再让自己
合:无法自拔

every other things are coming to an end [会含着不舍得].. soon it will be pure mugging.. hope that i can catch up and cover up my lag..

 

 

 

 

 

 

~你那么爱她
为什么不把她留下*