delta..

 

I
got
to change...

 

Be more focus..

 

and just mug..

 

hence,

i changed..

 

my hair..
reduce those dark things sprouting out of my head..
reduced to almost nothing..
this must be the time when i removed most hair in a single cut..
well, it doesn't really matters anyway..
"cut botak, nice to rub while i mug =)"
rhythms huh?

 

and surprisingly, others changed too..

 

my skin...
after the shower to get rid of those reluctant bits of hair hidden in my pokey bush, i realised that i'm peeling.
after so many days, it started to peel today..
hmm.. a great change..

 

was really glad that i kept my laptop yesterday..
no more laptop till night for now..
it really amaze me how much time i can spend just doing nothing on the com...
it amaze me so much that i got fearful of it...

 

NO MORE COM TILL NIGHT!

 

and what will change after tonight..

 

the moon..
tonight will be the last day of full moon..
she just appeared..
unlike yesterday, there was no orange/reddish hue..
perhaps a change for the better?
nonetheless, just staring at the bright moon brings satisfaction to this emo kid..
shrugs.. i must be abnormal.. xP

 

dawn wasnt as gentle..
it was fiery red.. so much so that i felt uneasy about it..
and to my surprise, just as i was about to air my thoughts, in came a phone call..
my grandmother fell and was in the operation room since 1 plus till just now was she wheeled out..

 

looking forward to tomorrow..
after so long and it had been so long since i last went for buddy day and finally, saturday's here..
well, i still had lots of revision awaiting me...
surprising.......................OH!!!!!

 

OH MY!! gee!! i am indeed lucky today!! Look.. [pardon my bad angle, got to quickly put up a stand and set to self timer mode and turn off flash and take the photo..pant pant]

~the beautiful moon and a bright star.. accompanied with a jet stream.. it was really beautiful, even now after the stream disperse.. i shall go for shot 2..

~alright.. too bad.. it cant be captured.. T.T but still nice to look at. i guess other people at other areas may not be able to see it as such due to different angles.. haha.. cant share the joy lo..

 

oppz. pardon this sky-obsessed boy.. i wonder if there are other people as crazy as this boy.. haha..

 

ok.. what i want to say that was surprising was i kinda READ through organic chem.. I got to say that i am surprise at my own speed..

 

yet to start on bio..

 

stay positive, positive, positive.. darn, this brainwashing isnt really working out well.. well, shall sleep on it..

 

go part 2 on diary.. =)

 

jiayouz to all muggers beneath this beautiful moonlight..

 

nice song here.. love the high part of the chorus..
ill be lovin u forever - westlife

WESTLIFE LYRICS
"Forever"
[All:]
I'll be loving you forever,
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never,
Even if you took my heart,
And tore it apart,
I would love you still, forever,
[Bryan:]
You are the sun,
You are my light,
And you're the last thing on my mind,
Before I go to sleep at night,
You're always round,
When I'm in need,
When trouble's on my mind,
You put my soul at ease,
There is no one in this world,
Who can love me like you do,
That is the reason that I,
Wanna spend forever with you,
[All:]
I'll be loving you forever,
Deep inside my heart you leave me never,
Even if you took my heart,
And tore it apart,
I would love you still, forever,
[Shane:]
We've had our fun,
We've made mistakes,
But who'd have guessed along that road,
We'd learn to give and take,
It's so much more than I could have dreamed,
Cause you make loving you, so easy for me,
There is no one in this world,
Who can love me like you do,
That is the reason that I,
Wanna spend forever with you,
[All:]
I'll be loving you forever,
Deep inside my heart you leave me never,
Even if you took my heart,
And tore it apart,
I would love you still, forever,
[Shane:]
And girl I pray you leave me, never,
[Mark:]
Cause this is the world, where lovers often go astray,
But if we love each other, we won't go that way,
So put your doubts aside,
Do what it takes to make it right,
I love you, forever, no-one can tear us apart,
[All: (Mark:)]
I'll be loving you forever, (forever)
Deep inside my heart you leave me never,
Even if you took my heart, (took my heart girl)
And tore it apart, (you tore it apart now)
I would love you still, forever,
And I'll be loving you forever, (forever)
Deep inside my heart you leave me never,
Even if you took my heart, (you took my heart girl)
And tore it apart, (you tore it apart now)
I would love you still, forever,
I'll be loving you forever,
Deep inside my heart you leave me never,
Even if you took my heart,
And tore it apart,
I would love you still, forever

outburst.. nice song!

 

thanks chinyang!! =) had been longing to "know" this song.. Always hear it here and there and was like "hey! it's THAT nice song".. haha..

 

万芳 - 新不了情
心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
已不见你暮暮与朝朝
这一份情永远难了
原来时还能再度拥抱
爱你的人如何死守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了今夜的你应该明了
愿难了情难了

 

nice nice nice...

 

pity the moon is shrouded by the blanket of clouds..

 

 

~今夜的我终于明了*

nostalgic..

 

nostalgic.. listening to the very same song found in the movie:endless waltz  which draws the gundam wing series to a close.

 

Last Impression - two mix

kotoba yori wakariaeru
manazashi ga soko ni areba
hito wa minna ikite-yukeru...
mayowazu ni jiyuu ni
ayamachi wo koete
kidzuku hontou no yasashisa
anata to mitsuketa kara
ai to yoberu tsuyosa wo...!!
I believe your love
furue nagara
kuchidzuke ni kasaneta negai
("anata" ga ite... "watashi" ga iru...)
wasurenaide itsumo...
I believe your dream
tsunoru omoi...
itoshisa wo inori ni kaete
kono kodou wo tsutaetai yo
atsuku hageshiku...
so far away
[Instrumental]
arasoiau dake ja
erarenai dare mo... nani mo
osanai te ni sashinobetai...
kegare no nai tokimeki wo
odayaka ni toki wo
kizamu komorebi no nukumori...
daremo ga idakaretai
zutto kitto eien ni...!!
I believe your love
akiramenai...
kizutsuita tsubasa hirogete
habataku sora kagiri no nai
yume wo egaku haruka...
I believe your dream
egao misete...
setsunasa ga afuredashite mo
kakegaenai ima wo itsuka
hokoritai kara...
So far away
[Instrumental]
ayamachi wo koete
kidzuku hontou no yasashisa
anata to mitsuketa kara
ai to yoberu tsuyosa wo...!!
I believe your love
furue nagara
kuchidzuke ni kasaneta negai
("anata" ga ite... "watashi" ga iru...)
wasurenaide itsumo...
I believe your dream
tsunoru omoi...
itoshisa wo inori ni kaete
kono kodou wo tsutaetai yo
atsuku hageshiku...
so far away
[Instrumental]
daiji na hito no tame ni
nagasu namida... itami ga...
sekai wo tsuranuki daichi wo nurasu...
kono kanashimi wo tometai!!
[Instrumental]
I believe your love
akiramenai...
kizutsuita tsubasa hirogete
habataku sora kagiri no nai
yume wo egaku haruka...
I believe your dream
egao misete...
setsunasa ga afuredashite mo
kakegaenai ima wo itsuka
hokoritai kara...
I believe your love
furue nagara
kuchidzuke ni kasaneta negai
("anata" ga ite... "watashi" ga iru...)
wasurenaide itsumo...
I believe your dream
tsunoru omoi...
itoshisa wo inori ni kaete
kono kodou wo tsutaetai yo
atsuku hageshiku...
so far away

 

If there are glances that communicate
Better than words,
People can all live on freely
Without losing their way.
Overcoming our mistakes, we realise
What true kindness is.
Together, you and I discovered
That strength called love.
I BELIEVE YOUR LOVE
Trembling, we seal our wish
With a sweet kiss.
(You are here ...
So am I ...)
Please don't ever forget.
I BELIEVE YOUR DREAM
A feeling that intensifies,
Turning affection into a prayer.
I want to let you know this pulsing sensation
So hot, so fierce, SO FAR AWAY
Strife alone can never achieve,
Not for anyone, for anything,
This pure rhythm that I want to pass along
To a young and innocent hand.
The warmth of the sun shone through clusters of leaves
Steadily marks the passage of time.
This surely is what everyone wants to hold onto
Forever and ever.
*** I BELIEVE YOUR LOVE
Never give up.
Stretch out your wounded wings.
Soaring up to the sky,
You sketch an infinite dream
So faraway ...
I BELIEVE YOUR DREAM
Show your smiling face
Even though you are drowned by sorrow,
If someday you want to be proud of
This irreplaceable present.
SO FAR AWAY
The pain of tears shed
For an important person
Spears through the earth,
Drenches the land.
This is a sorrow I want to put to an end.

 

cant really find a nice video so didnt post here.. like all other anime OST, there's more than just the song played when one hears theses songs. More of the clips tagged onto the melody, the animations.. aye, these made the song much colourful than what it merely sounds..

 

argh. still stuck on maths.. shall move on to chem soon.. 2 more days and end of holidays.. T.T

 

i fear the up coming days.. I havent write my testimonial!!! [not like i got much to write... =.=]

 

*curse*

 

end of slacking and outburst.. back to mugging and rotting at home..

 

~掩饰不了我的笨拙
就连说话都会颤抖*

till i have the time,

i will blog...

 

too much things, too little time..
[时间已将我掩埋!!!! ARGH!!!]

 

GOOD LUCK and ALL THE BEST to those who are equally or more screwed than me [which i doubt there is] in terms of revision...

 

going out for blood test soon.. sigh.. hmm.. health 1st..

 

mug mug mug for now!!!

加油z!

Running and/or chasing...

 

Ah.. My last day helping out at SCAS. Finally I will get full days for revision. As to revision, i am rather seriously screwed. One and a half weeks left and i have only finish revision for econs [h1] and near half of physics. ARGH!!! Had be really busy all these times, CIP till lunch and sometimes till about 3.. It was sure tiring but meaningful. Since i was there doing anything which i am of help, usually typing, i have time to plug in to my MP3 player and just let my thoughts wonder. Hence i thought through lots of stuffs. But at times frequently, the thought of the up coming CT will set in and it seriously makes my heart race. Much like reflex. Yet i dont know why but i just feels satisfied and great that i was of help [though i am kinda screwed up here].

 

Didnt have time to blog too.. so here is a little update..

 

**********

The day before yesterday: 08/06/2008 - younger sis's bday..

 

Things were rather similar till afternoon: woke up 7am and started on physics and it lasted me all the way to afternoon and beyond. Despite it being overcast outside, younger sis insisted that we go for a picnic. So i was like, "ok, then what if it rain (inside: SURE RAIN DE!)." Though we kept asking about this question, she insisted that it will not rain, so at about 3 plus, we made our way to pasir ris park. The initial plan was us cycling there but since it was threatening to rain, mom suggested that we bring our rollerblades there instead, which we did. Well, it had been YEARs since i last blade, nonetheless, i like rollerblading, just unsure if i could even get moving.

 

Much of it was unfounded since firstly, i am not that good in the past to speak of and secondly, i did manage to move rather well. =) So i brought younger sis for a round around the park. *realised my elder sis is not very competent in terms of camera handling.. hmm.. but quite good at taking candid shots..

~strapping up. trying to squeeze into the same hand guard i wore when i was in like primary school [they came in a set with the old pair of blades].. and they still fit [though bursting].. wonder what i was chanting then..

~posing before standing up..

~and before setting off..

 

In the end, we were crawling slowly, or slower than the walking speed as my elder sis phrased it. Well, it cant be helped since i am following my younger sis and i got to stay behind her to alert her of the traffic [it's a sunday]. There were also some quite challenging places [those bridges linking the parks together] where slopes are rather tall and steep. Like my contented younger sis puts it, "i came down in one good piece. *beam*" Upon going back to where we started, sis retired, claiming that her legs are hurting already. Since i was tailing my younger sister all the time, i can hardly go at my own pace so i went for a few more trips on my own.

 

This time, i ventured into the other side of the old park, the place after the playground. Personally, i really like that place because it is less crowded and least disturbance. The track there is good too. Furthermore, that place it green and pleasing to the eye. So i was blading without my specs. I guess that is kinda endangering the people around me but i can still figure out obstacles most of the time. What i like most about rollerblading is the wind. Much like running [which i cant do now due to the persistent splint] but less tedious. And it is FAST too. Even noobs like me can blade faster than or on par with bikes [bicycles, not motorbikes] at an average speed.

 

After a few rounds, i went back and grabbed my waterbottle and set off to the same track. So i was blading with my bottle in my left and my specs in my right. Soon, i got a little thirsty so i waddled across the grass patch, pass the foot track and onto the grass patch beside the breakwater. The sky is still gray and the waves are gentle. It was indeed relaxing. So i lay down my stuff and piak on the grass, staring up into the sky. Luxurious i will say. Yet, cliche it might be but true, all good things have to end, so i got up, dust myself and went back [before i get too carried away on my own].

 

Back at base, i took off the blades and fished out my book and started reading. I though it would be great to lie on the hammock and read but it was too straight and after awhile, my back hurts from arcing and i gave up. We then played chaptey [dont know spelling] and frisbee and soon, we were hungry. So we packed up and set off to elias mall for dinner.

 

On the way, a little boy dart beside me and turned back to mock at his brother who in turn started to chase that little boy. The two then ran off chasing one another. It was a common scene of catching [or just blind chasing one another] but it did triggered a few thoughts. In our life, we have been doing the same too. Chasing dreams [ideals] and running away from bad ones [bad memories]. Chasing.. hmm.. Humans chase over lots of stuffs: titles and ranks, achievements, money? and the common term, 追 (chase) girls [or guys].. Well, then lots of questions came popping up: (just to name a few of them)

"What if the things we were chasing were always running too, then how do we catch up [or will we ever do]. "

"Are the things we are chasing after what we ultimately wants [titles, achievements and money?]"

"Why do we run away from things then? Is there anything chasing behind? If there is, what happens if it catches up?"

But the things is regardless of running towards or away from something, the fact that we are always running. So much so to the point that we may end up forgetting what we are chasing after/running away from, why we are chasing after/running away from it...

Alright, so much of sharing, i shall keep the rest of my thoughts to myself lest it bores/scares readers [if any] with the remaining length..

 

The day finally ended with the movie "Howl's moving castle" [a present of my sister] by director of "Spirited Away", Hayao Miyazaki. I got to say that Spirited Away was too dark a movie for me and remembered i was rather disturbed for a period of time after watching that show. Yet, i got the say that Howl's Moving Castle is a really great movie. I think that it is a very deep movie and expressed many human natures [just like Spirited Away] through the magical world. I will say that this movie can pass as a movie for analysis. Perhaps credits to Language Arts, i found myself questioning myself for the reason to look deeper into the movie. HIGHLY RECOMMENDED!!

A little little spoiler ahead.

I thought that this description was very appropriate. When Howl regained consciousness upon gaining back his heart [he was unaware he got it back since he was unconscious and "heartless" before that], he said,"I feel terrible. Like i'm trapped under a stone." Something like that.. One one side, one can understand it as it is a burden to feel, while on the other one can understand it as what makes us human is us feeling which is also what made us feel terrible at times. There are many many ways to view this but just thought that it is very true indeed..

 

alright back to mugging... JIAYOU EVERYONE!!!

dreams..

 

tried waking up at 5.55am to mug but failed.. Really tired. Just cant get out of bed. Headache. Same so after waking up from the afternoon nap...

 

Dreaming is a scary phenomenon. I wonder why i was able to make decision in a dream [or if i even was]. And the worst thing is while the settings and content are unrealistic and corny at times, it still seemed so real.. The five senses are completely functional. And what is most scary was while i know that i am coming to my senses [waking up], i could actually feel a "i dont want to wake up" feeling and i practically rushed whatever i want to do/react in the dream while i was in the process of waking up. Then the view shifted from first person to third person view while minimising at the same time and my vision starts to fade in..  I got this feeling that my eyes may be already wide open just that my mind was somewhere else. Was indeed like soul travelling. Gee. I think that is is rather scary. Nonetheless, it was quite a nice and interesting dream. But will such things come true? Well, let's not look too much into dreams...

 

My trusty mp3 player is the companion while i do cip at SCAS. Job's not easy there. Admin stuffs involved not only filing which an unorganised person like me find really tedious. It also involved some lots of physical element. I need to squeeze some thick files into the archive shelves which were already really tight...

 

While listening to my updated playlist, i came across many nice songs which i have not heard from quite some time.. Well, here is one of such song. Ever wondered where that "out of my heart into your head" at the bottom of each post came from? It's from this song..

 

Out of my Heart (Into Your Head) - BBmak

I feel fine
Now the rain has gone and the
sun has come to shine
Nothing can get me down today
Head over heels
Got my mind made up as I’m
driving through the fields
Nothing can get me down again
Catch me if you can
I’ve gotta make a getaway
As the sun goes down, wakin’ up my dreams
And in my mind you’re with me once again
Out of my heart, into your head
And inside my heart there’s a place for you
And in my mind I’m with you once again
Out of my heart, into your head
Chasing the sun
Tryin’ to get away
From the rain that’s gonna come
Hope I make it all the way
I’m lost in a crowd
Tryin’ to find my way
But the rain keeps fallin’ down
Doesn’t matter anyway
Catch me if you can
I’ve gotta make a getaway
As the sun goes down, wakin’ up my dreams
And in my mind you’re with me once again
Out of my heart, into your head
And inside my heart there’s a place for you
And in my mind I’m with you once again
Out of my heart, into your head
Take a look at the sky
Feel the sunshine
In your heart
In your head
In your own time
As the sun goes down, wakin’ up my dreams
And in my mind you’re with me once again
Out of my heart, into your head
And inside my heart there’s a place for you
And in my mind I’m with you once again
Out of my heart, into your head
Out of my heart, into your head
Out of my heart, into your head

 

[credits to yingyu for introducing this and many other english songs.. =)]

went online to kap the chords [it's rather easy except Em7 (it only got 3 chords: Em7, C and D, LOL!)].. i realised that there are many many chords online!! So glad that i found 蒲公英's chords and they are easy!! I meant relative to playing the tabs.. xP yar.. i am no music person and in terms of flexibilty and delicate/simple finger coordination will prove to be a great chore to my tremble-ly fingers.. So easy chords make life a lot easier for me.. Next is to learn to sing while strumming.. Anyway, i need someone to teach me more strumming techniques.. And that someone got to be patient. LOL!

 

finally got my laptop out of my view [yes, i practically did it (thanks zihui jie for the reminder)] so i will use it at night nia.. mom said that laptops emit radiation and should not be placed in the room... hope that is not right. I need to get my beautiful wife out of my view to focus on mugging sia.. haha..

 

once again seeing beautiful time digits.. i saw: [pm] 0101, 0110,0202, 0303, 0330, 0404, 0505 and 0606.. then i went for a nap. woke up and saw 0808.. hahaha... perhaps it is due to my higher frequency of reading time from my watch? Nonetheless, it feels amazing.. those "wah! again!" feeling.. =)

 

going back school tomorrow for consultation with mdm leong who offered upon request. I need to clear some economical doubts.. hahaa.. Thanks Mdm Leong!

 

~once again i am thinking about
taking the easy way out*