Ah.. My last day helping out at SCAS. Finally I will get full days for revision. As to revision, i am rather seriously screwed. One and a half weeks left and i have only finish revision for econs [h1] and near half of physics. ARGH!!! Had be really busy all these times, CIP till lunch and sometimes till about 3.. It was sure tiring but meaningful. Since i was there doing anything which i am of help, usually typing, i have time to plug in to my MP3 player and just let my thoughts wonder. Hence i thought through lots of stuffs. But at times frequently, the thought of the up coming CT will set in and it seriously makes my heart race. Much like reflex. Yet i dont know why but i just feels satisfied and great that i was of help [though i am kinda screwed up here].
Didnt have time to blog too.. so here is a little update..
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The day before yesterday: 08/06/2008 - younger sis's bday..
Things were rather similar till afternoon: woke up 7am and started on physics and it lasted me all the way to afternoon and beyond. Despite it being overcast outside, younger sis insisted that we go for a picnic. So i was like, "ok, then what if it rain (inside: SURE RAIN DE!)." Though we kept asking about this question, she insisted that it will not rain, so at about 3 plus, we made our way to pasir ris park. The initial plan was us cycling there but since it was threatening to rain, mom suggested that we bring our rollerblades there instead, which we did. Well, it had been YEARs since i last blade, nonetheless, i like rollerblading, just unsure if i could even get moving.
Much of it was unfounded since firstly, i am not that good in the past to speak of and secondly, i did manage to move rather well. =) So i brought younger sis for a round around the park. *realised my elder sis is not very competent in terms of camera handling.. hmm.. but quite good at taking candid shots..
~strapping up. trying to squeeze into the same hand guard i wore when i was in like primary school [they came in a set with the old pair of blades].. and they still fit [though bursting].. wonder what i was chanting then..
~posing before standing up..
~and before setting off..
In the end, we were crawling slowly, or slower than the walking speed as my elder sis phrased it. Well, it cant be helped since i am following my younger sis and i got to stay behind her to alert her of the traffic [it's a sunday]. There were also some quite challenging places [those bridges linking the parks together] where slopes are rather tall and steep. Like my contented younger sis puts it, "i came down in one good piece. *beam*" Upon going back to where we started, sis retired, claiming that her legs are hurting already. Since i was tailing my younger sister all the time, i can hardly go at my own pace so i went for a few more trips on my own.
This time, i ventured into the other side of the old park, the place after the playground. Personally, i really like that place because it is less crowded and least disturbance. The track there is good too. Furthermore, that place it green and pleasing to the eye. So i was blading without my specs. I guess that is kinda endangering the people around me but i can still figure out obstacles most of the time. What i like most about rollerblading is the wind. Much like running [which i cant do now due to the persistent splint] but less tedious. And it is FAST too. Even noobs like me can blade faster than or on par with bikes [bicycles, not motorbikes] at an average speed.
After a few rounds, i went back and grabbed my waterbottle and set off to the same track. So i was blading with my bottle in my left and my specs in my right. Soon, i got a little thirsty so i waddled across the grass patch, pass the foot track and onto the grass patch beside the breakwater. The sky is still gray and the waves are gentle. It was indeed relaxing. So i lay down my stuff and piak on the grass, staring up into the sky. Luxurious i will say. Yet, cliche it might be but true, all good things have to end, so i got up, dust myself and went back [before i get too carried away on my own].
Back at base, i took off the blades and fished out my book and started reading. I though it would be great to lie on the hammock and read but it was too straight and after awhile, my back hurts from arcing and i gave up. We then played chaptey [dont know spelling] and frisbee and soon, we were hungry. So we packed up and set off to elias mall for dinner.
On the way, a little boy dart beside me and turned back to mock at his brother who in turn started to chase that little boy. The two then ran off chasing one another. It was a common scene of catching [or just blind chasing one another] but it did triggered a few thoughts. In our life, we have been doing the same too. Chasing dreams [ideals] and running away from bad ones [bad memories]. Chasing.. hmm.. Humans chase over lots of stuffs: titles and ranks, achievements, money? and the common term, 追 (chase) girls [or guys].. Well, then lots of questions came popping up: (just to name a few of them)
"What if the things we were chasing were always running too, then how do we catch up [or will we ever do]. "
"Are the things we are chasing after what we ultimately wants [titles, achievements and money?]"
"Why do we run away from things then? Is there anything chasing behind? If there is, what happens if it catches up?"
But the things is regardless of running towards or away from something, the fact that we are always running. So much so to the point that we may end up forgetting what we are chasing after/running away from, why we are chasing after/running away from it...
Alright, so much of sharing, i shall keep the rest of my thoughts to myself lest it bores/scares readers [if any] with the remaining length..
The day finally ended with the movie "Howl's moving castle" [a present of my sister] by director of "Spirited Away", Hayao Miyazaki. I got to say that Spirited Away was too dark a movie for me and remembered i was rather disturbed for a period of time after watching that show. Yet, i got the say that Howl's Moving Castle is a really great movie. I think that it is a very deep movie and expressed many human natures [just like Spirited Away] through the magical world. I will say that this movie can pass as a movie for analysis. Perhaps credits to Language Arts, i found myself questioning myself for the reason to look deeper into the movie. HIGHLY RECOMMENDED!!
A little little spoiler ahead.
I thought that this description was very appropriate. When Howl regained consciousness upon gaining back his heart [he was unaware he got it back since he was unconscious and "heartless" before that], he said,"I feel terrible. Like i'm trapped under a stone." Something like that.. One one side, one can understand it as it is a burden to feel, while on the other one can understand it as what makes us human is us feeling which is also what made us feel terrible at times. There are many many ways to view this but just thought that it is very true indeed..
alright back to mugging... JIAYOU EVERYONE!!!
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