Friday, September 26, 2008

non-living..

gee.. i feel as though i am as good as dead. Yes. There is like no meaning in my life now.. I feel so empty. I need to do something about it i guess. I shouldnt be doing things just to use up time.

Yes. In other words, i am wasting my life away. I guess mom is right. I should not be chionging and "playing" [something i tried doing but failed totally] the whole day round but do something more constructive. She's definitely right about the cliche phrase of "time wasted never returns". But as an impulsive naive teen, i will still get all flustered when i hears that, though screaming "THAT'S RIGHT!" deep within. Sometimes the body and the mind just dont agree to each other huh? Shucks...

Reminds me of Lu老师's acc lesson about chinese teachings. I forgot the actual numerical digit but the saying goes like when one is young, he cant tell what's right or what's wrong. 10 years later, he start to be able to tell what's right and what's wrong but cant resist the wrong doings at times. After another 10 years, he can tell what's wrong and choose to do the right things though still faces some internal struggle when deciding. Upon hitting an old age, he can finally choose to do the right things without any internal struggle. Wow.. that's a lot of words. Hence chinese characters are more elegant at times huh? So i guess i stand at the forefront noob stage..

well... Is this what's called a mood swing? Gee.. Why was i still a cheery a moment ago and now i am all tired and feeling faint.. Perhaps i am tired..

I hope so....

 

 

Anyway.. anyone for mugging tomorrow?

 

Call me a damper ba.. but i am creasing to exist.. i need to do something..

 

i doubt i will get any response in time.. haha.. just thinking aloud..

 

isnt that the point of a blog? =)

 

 

so.. what's the meaning of nothing?
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i go no idea at all...

 

~looping jay songs...............

argh.. still quite screwed up..

yes.. the photos are still quite screwed up but better than nothing so aye.. =.= la.. WHAT IS FREAKING WRONG WITH MY UPLOADING.........

 

T.T

 

what a rainy day......

pre-aged..


i hope my genuine shocked expression didnt make me look too retarded from the already retarded face..

yes.. i will like to officially CONGRATS the clique for successfully catching someone off guard for birthday celebration. And yes.. that someone is none other than the retard narrating here. But do hear me out........................................................................ MY BIRTHDAY IS NEXT MONTH!!! Theoretically, no one would have suspected anything right? [that reasons for the shock despite hearing daniel chanting the order of the bday song which ended with a "R".. i nearly blurt out "R? That's for Roy" intending it to be a joke but dismissed that since i thought it would have been quite a cold one.. (but it turned out to be so.. that powered up my level of "
shocked")

To add on to my shock-ness (cant think of any way to express that level of shock), i was still kinda engaged in part of the planning since i got to settle getting our big shot yiwei who had a tight schedule and i raise a slight suspicion about the whole thing proved that the operation was really successful. Personally, i wasnt expecting anything since yea... the date is so near to A levels. It's not right to let your friends trouble over an insignificant increase in the quantified aged. Seriously, as i aged, birthday meant lesser to me. Remembered when i was young, i will look forward to all the presents and stuffs.. Kinda like the more the merrier. But now, i try to look at meaning behind the gifts. Gift hunting is sure tough job. I guess it'll be really hard to hunt for something when one have nothing in mind as to what the person wants. I guess that makes it hard to get me anything since i myself dont know what i want.. hmm.. maybe a new phone? LOL! AH! PSP or PS3.. LOL. But i dont exactly crave for them either. "Nice to have, fine without".

Anyway, backtrack to before the celebration, was playing tennis with kek and danz in school. They left gabriel behind as part of the plot i guess thinking back now. HAHA!! Then we met at just noodle which most people ate rice instead or should i say ice-cream. Jason and danz are crazy enough to suck up about about 18 scoops each. x.X The serving was relatively ok since there's free flow of cold lipid-filled stuffs.. I had my first experiment with the making of floats and it thrills me... see those foams bubbles out of the cup and make a lot of mess "blup blup blup blup!!"  [ok.. this retard here is easily thrilled by little nonsense]

Since we made too much noise and create a real racket at just noodle, we decided to move on to invade some other place. And that place was esplanade rooftop. I had heard many wonderful descriptions of that place but i have never been there till "yesternight". And indeed! It was a wonderful place. Cockroach aside and over-friendly cleaner uncle, the dimly lit atmosphere with the neon-outlines of the buildings and the dark void of the night sky sure makes it a nice place to emo. Cake cutting and scribbling of messages was sure challenging since it was dim. Handphone torches sure came in useful. =) Then yoke san started to "摆摊" and laid out all the presents. And we got a present guessing session which i wanted to guess all of the presents as mine. So at the first present, i immediately said it's mine. And indeed. That got the people a little shocked. HAHA! me and my nonsense.

Here are my presents: [sorry no photos.. too lazy x.X]
- a striped long sleeved shirt
- a set of drawing pencils

i was expecting the pencils since [ok after knowing that my birthday was about to be celebrated] i told jing hui that i thought of buying them. =) THANKZ 大汤哥!! As for the striped shirt, i guess there must had been some random chance to chance upon it ba. HAHA. Mom actually kinda laughed at me since always told her not to buy stripe shirt for me as i though they looked like pyjamas. HAHA! so here is my first striped shirt! Having tried it out, i thought i looked fine with it. The thought of it being from the people close to you and the meaning behind the shirt might have caused my differing opinion to this stripe shirt. =) And the size is perfect.

shall leave the bottom for photos...

From 2008 bday celebration - sept and me!

~people present.. those in uniform came from school.. duh.. =.=

From 2008 bday celebration - sept and me!

~当我还不知所措时....
From 2008 bday celebration - sept and me!

~被拉进来了.. they said me and yiwei like wedding cake cutting ceremony but hey! yiwei represent sept then i must 为 october 的增一点气吧.. ok. just me and my nonsense again.
From 2008 bday celebration - sept and me!

~some serious wishing going on while i stared blankly at the candles.. not accustomed to wishing with a pose for the cam.. haha.. and the light at the back seemed to eat up my hair.
From 2008 bday celebration - sept and me!

~our lovely fruity cake.. dont be fooled my it's relatively cream-less facade. it proved to have enough potential to pose threat to the victims at the esplanade rooftop.
From 2008 bday celebration - sept and me!

~identifying present. LOL! Too bad.. Correct guesses got no bonus and wrong guesses got no penalty.. the top right are my presents! =) aka tat striped rectangular thing and that rectangular thing on top of the popular plastic bag.

 

Since we are near to the F1 racing track, we went down to have some fun. We playfully cheered those trucks which passed by as though they are the one racing. LOL!

From 2008 bday celebration - sept and me!




From 2008 bday celebration - sept and me!

~Jing hui and his trademark hugging action.. it's constricting.. ouch haha! Should see the one with yiwei man.. gosh..

 

 

so THANKZ LOTS FOR THE GIFT and FOR THE TIME AND EFFORT SPENT! Really appreciated it. Looking forward to the most valuable gift which have yet to arrive. The CARDS!! =D It's really a blessing to have close friends as these. Aye.. Part of the emoing on the rooftop includes what lies ahead of us after the end of A levels. Will there still be times as such when we will waste time and make memories together?? Well, we will embark on different journeys [not much variations for the guys i guess], some flying off while those staying will most probably get into different courses. We may not be able to meet at often and go crazy that often, make as much noise as often.. But as long as we hold on proudly to the label of "theclique".. We will survive. =)

 

 

 

so what am i now? 17 or 18? Usually, the birthday is significant only due to the celebrations.. hmm.. it doesnt really matter i guess. It doesnt make me less retarded.. HAHA!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

on a random note,
i am really bored today..

so much so that i thought i could mug..

why.. x.X

please just publish....

damn it.. my live writer is kinda screwed when there are photos involved..

 

WHY CANT I POST ANYTHING!!!!! GGGGGRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....

 

 

 

 

 

now what??????

Sunday, September 21, 2008

i am totally lame..

i tried uploading a post filled with photos and it failed to upload.. >.<

 

in the end, i just waste the whole yesternight.. =.=

 

ook.. got to go start some work already...

 

argh.. i need to find my discipline back..

 

help...

Friday, September 12, 2008

shift in equilibrium

Hmm. I feel.. different and kinda weird.. Over-joyed i will say. Yes. I found myself smiling and laughing at everything, anything and nothing. So much so that i find myself quite amusing.

 

I realised that i got this very bad habit of being addicted to mangas during exam periods. I will just go to www.onemanga.com [if you dont already know, this is the site to get almost any english-translated manga you want], and aimlessly click on one series of manga and chiong from chapter one all the way to the latest chapter and get bored again. Then i go conquer another series. This is seriously a really dangerous bad habit and now i am still facing the drawback symptoms. x.X But i got to say that i chanced upon this very very nice manga!!!

HERE IS THE LINK: http://www.onemanga.com/Tsubasa_Reservoir_Chronicles/

Yupz!! Here is a very short intro [which doesnt really capture anything nice about the manga actually since it is so brief but nonetheless...]:

Sakura and Syaoran return, but they're not the people you know. Sakura is the princess of Clow - and possessor of a mysterious, misunderstood power that promises to change the world. Syaoran is her childhood friend and leader of the archaeological dig that took his father's life. They reside in an alternate reality... where whatever you least expect can happen - and does. When Sakura ventures to the dig site to declare her love for Syaoran, a puzzling symbol is uncovered - which triggers a remarkable quest. Now Syaoran embarks upon a desperate journey through other worlds-all in the name of saving Sakura.

Lots of really interesting themes and surprising twists, making the whole manga very pleasant and "sweet" to read. I got to say that the drawing is relatively good but it's the great storyline that pushes the reader on. =) Hmm. I guess there are not much manga-crazed guys, like me, in the people around me but do give this manga a go [if you have the time - perhaps after prelims/As?]. There are interesting themes about life/fate/love/etc if you get what i mean [those more philosophical stuff]. I guess that's why i love mangas, a platform where themes about friendship, love, etc can be infused with the fantasy and nice illustration. What's more about this manga is that it doesnt contain "ecchi" stuffs. [for those who know not that "ecchi" means, it meant suggestive [sexual] content] Most mangas now contain a little of such stuffs here and there to gain getter readership i guess. In fact, i dont think this is a unique trend in just mangas but i believe in novels as well. Perhaps there is an increasing trend of demand for perverted stuffs? LOLLER.. Alright. This is a little off topic... [even one piece, naruto, bleach contain a little of those stuffs!!] Yet, dont condemn manga just yet. Those stuffs are really not the focus, or rather, they should not be.. haha..

HERE IS A PAGE of tsubasa reservoir:

04 
~hmm.. not exactly very happy expressions but aye.. nice manga =)

 

Ah! Having said so much, back to the issue about change.. I seriously wonder if there is anyone out there who is enjoying exams? Because this crazy guy right here is kinda enjoying it. It is not like i find the paper really easy or what [actually, it's the very very opposite], but i find myself getting really excited and happy about the exams!! So much so that i cannot comprehend it myself. =S I found myself going into the exam hall wanting to enjoy the paper. Gosh! HAhaha.. It kinda freaks me out but i feel so. Like i was telling danz, prelims is too near a future to be altered. I guess the only possible thing to be changed is A levels. Aye. Like i was saying, prelims is the last time that i can "postpone" good results. I thought that this form of expression is so apt. What i am trying to express is that when it was common test, i remembered saying that i must ace it. Results? Flopped. Really BADLY. So now was like.. Ok, now prelims must ACE! But then again, judging on the current situation, a little "errrr...". Yea. Familiar to you? So finally, A level will come. Hopefully, there will no longer be any "postponing" of good results.

 

As the days rolled by, and continue to roll pass, i suddenly [no idea since when] felt that "the end is drawing nearer". I am not exactly sure if i express it correctly because i am not sure myself. I am not exactly sure what "the end" refers too as well. Then the sudden "over-happiness" possessed me. Lots of laughter, lots of smiles. Well, it's not exactly bad but just feel different. As though some part of me snapped [like go bonkers]. I started doing crazy things... The day after maths paper 2 [which is the day before yesterday], reached home when no one's at home. I ran around [no one at home to see this crazy me] the house doing household chores happily [to prevent myself from using the computer - since i dont want to study, might as well do some useful stuffs]. Vacuumed and mopped the floor, washed up the plates, cleaned two toilets and do the laundries. No one realised what i did but it still felt great. Aye, it is time that i do more useful things other than getting nowhere despite focusing on studies. Come to think of it, schooling will officially end this year huh? I wonder if i am ready for what's to come...

 

I want to be able to support myself after i step out of JC and i wonder how i can go about doing it. I want to be independent enough and take up more responsibilities but i wonder if i am up to it or not. Yea. I got to start now. Perhaps, wash my own clothes, help with household chores, and take charge of my own life. To a certain extend, i wonder if this will result in me drifting off to be a loner, which i guess certain aspect of me inspire to be.. Doing everything by myself. I hope not. The future will bring what's to come. =) Hope that i can grow and mature in the right way, on the right path, in the right direction..

 

Quite desperate to source for a substitute for manga reading. Hence took on drawing. =) Someday i shall ran around the place with a painting kit and paint.. Someday.. Perhaps when i retire? Wow, that seemed like long time huh? I wonder if i will live even till then. Haha. Yes. Live each day meaningfully. Realised the power of a smile is really amazing. Realised that at the start of the year but forgot about this and was recently reminded again. Yes, i guess it's really nice that it's something contagious. Yet again, there are many types of smiles.. Check tsubasa.. It takes people close to you to figure out your true feelings which at times, you yourself cant decipher.

 

Yea.

 

Enjoy this beautifully sucky life!

 

=)

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

thankz!!

many thankz to jing hui for helping me with the layout.. =)

 

 

i really should be mugging.. ARGH!!! i am possessed...

Monday, September 1, 2008

time flies when your are having fun...

If that is absolutely true, tests and mugging are the most enjoyable things on EARTH till date for me...






what a random sms i got.. LOL!


Yes, i love you too.. [fret not, this "you" is a guy.... but to a certain extend, it is more worrying huh?]



GOSH! Day one had pass.. 4 more days till end of holidays [weekends are non-school days so not counted]...




AAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!