non-living..

gee.. i feel as though i am as good as dead. Yes. There is like no meaning in my life now.. I feel so empty. I need to do something about it i guess. I shouldnt be doing things just to use up time.

Yes. In other words, i am wasting my life away. I guess mom is right. I should not be chionging and "playing" [something i tried doing but failed totally] the whole day round but do something more constructive. She's definitely right about the cliche phrase of "time wasted never returns". But as an impulsive naive teen, i will still get all flustered when i hears that, though screaming "THAT'S RIGHT!" deep within. Sometimes the body and the mind just dont agree to each other huh? Shucks...

Reminds me of Lu老师's acc lesson about chinese teachings. I forgot the actual numerical digit but the saying goes like when one is young, he cant tell what's right or what's wrong. 10 years later, he start to be able to tell what's right and what's wrong but cant resist the wrong doings at times. After another 10 years, he can tell what's wrong and choose to do the right things though still faces some internal struggle when deciding. Upon hitting an old age, he can finally choose to do the right things without any internal struggle. Wow.. that's a lot of words. Hence chinese characters are more elegant at times huh? So i guess i stand at the forefront noob stage..

well... Is this what's called a mood swing? Gee.. Why was i still a cheery a moment ago and now i am all tired and feeling faint.. Perhaps i am tired..

I hope so....

 

 

Anyway.. anyone for mugging tomorrow?

 

Call me a damper ba.. but i am creasing to exist.. i need to do something..

 

i doubt i will get any response in time.. haha.. just thinking aloud..

 

isnt that the point of a blog? =)

 

 

so.. what's the meaning of nothing?
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i go no idea at all...

 

~looping jay songs...............