I'll play my part...

So the day is finally here... The day when i will start earning some money for the sale of my body. Haha. That was the way Mr Tan puts it with humour.

Happy that i am:

1. joining the guys in tekong. It does feel a little left out to be well, here in mainland when everyone's there
2. getting my hair cut. I am quite successful in making myself sick of my long hair. Woke up with the fringe poking eyes.. Quote jason, "feel the songness in shaving"

let's nto talk about the sad things.. yea...

I AM GOING IN!!!!!

 

=)

Take care everyone..

Thankz and sorry to intern pple for asking you all to take over the content of lvl gift.. yupz

 

nice and apt song.. 'Close your eyes' from westlife...

no moon to see...

hope got emo time..

 

~in my heart, we'll never be apart*

dont disappear...

I have long thought of typing a post like this.. But seem like i am too lazy to do so...

Anyway, i am here now. Computers can really take you in and help u waste your time away lo. These days when i stayed at home, i can practically spend majority of my time sitting in front of this pretty rectangular screen and waste my time away. Not right lar, but you know? Those type of feeling like you feel like doing something yet there is nothing there to be done/you are too lazy to do so. And you are in this numb state where you just do something moderately fun [or something that is not unpleasant] just to let time pass. No sense of satisfaction, no sense of pleasure.. Take for example, playing computer games with no thrill, logging in to facebook once every too often, etc...

I need to do something more constructive....

~ trying to learn how to draw and paint using photoshop... Just managed to trace a pic drawn long logn time ago suing photoshop's pen tool... But still working on the colouring process which is getting no where.. >.< I WANT A TABLET!!!! [WACOM BAMBOO!!! *drool*]

Ah! Back to the topic.. Life is sure more lonely now that most of my guys friends are away from mainland. Yea, i miss schooling and schooling with my schoolmates... Every single part of it. Despite DHS now being more like DHGS [Dunman High Girls School] with females taking up about 3/4 of the student cohort, we guys [and girls] are a closely knitted bunch, especially so since we were together for about six years or more. Though i will be enter just 2 weeks after them [which is also quite very soon], i just have this complex feeling towards national service. I got to say when i was young/younger, i used to think that i will enter NS and be transformed into a fit, tanned and independent man in the two years. Yet now, i got little fear that my pals and myself, will enter this factory and emerge something not as positive... Hmm.. I guess we will become more 粗 in some way. Heard from my cousin that you bound to rid yourself of your allergies to vulgarities when you enter. There were also tales of people becoming alcohol addicts and picking up smoking habits after NS.. Well, hence i feel that slight unease..

Hmm, all aside, must have faith that we know what is right and what is wrong for ourselves. This is just the first step out of our cosy shelter and stepping out into the real world.. We bound to meet more types of people with very different mindset, different set of thinking. Yea...

 

We will adapt..

 

But dont disappear...

 

 

~静止了  所有的花开
遥远了  清晰了爱*

when the clock strikes 12...

ah.. finally.. this marks the end of 2008..

In many ways, 2008 is a really important chapter in my life. This is the last year of:

• classroom style of schooling [of which includes]
• school uniforms
• fixed school rules [such as reporting time, etc]
• having a home tutor [form teacher]
• and a home class..
• but more importantly, it means the end of schooling WITH fellow 6 years mates [or what known as year 7s now]

 

When the clock strikes 12 tonight [inclusive of the lengthened one second], what's going to be different?

1. most obviously, adult fare of ez link cards.. which is going to cost a bomb. In fact i was thinking of going on a trip onboard 518 where the fare is most expensive. Yet nay, couldn't find a reason to get into town. Anyway, my ez link card stands at a balance of $0.43. Haha..  就算了吧..
2. secondly, it spells, for most of us, one week plus to NS. Though i am not part of the "most of us" but yea.. with most in the army, it does get a little lonely [or left out].
3. third, we officially dont have to wear school based clothing to school anymore. We just have to dress decently. =) there were some debates to that but well, i think as dunmanians, our discretions are not too bad [except that sometimes teachers fear that us alumni may be too "influential"].
4. fourth, no "school reopen"-ing for us. My mom is still tuning my sister from holiday mode to school mode, which can be summarized as many cuts in leisure activities and sleep early. No more packing of schooling materials this time and of which i kinda missed. I missed flipping through those new textbooks and getting my new/working stationery together. I guess it is that "i am ready for school" mood that i am missing.
5. lastly, this seemed rather far but well, it's something on the "upcoming events" list too. We will be getting back our A level results.. >.< I think this is the most scary part of examinations. That constant reminder of "不要期望太大，不然失望更大" , while on the other side wishing that all the worries are unfounded. hmm...Aiya, just raw terror la.

Since this is going to be the end of a chapter of my life and the beginning of another, i will like to thank everyone everything around me for making/resulting/causing me to be the me of the present. I wont say that i am anything decent but without everything's help, i swear i will be something much worst..

Thanks dad for supporting the family all these times and putting up with the household chores even when you return home from work.
Thanks mom for all these time rotting at home and putting up with my nonsense. Thanks for all the care and concerns. Care and concerns are the hardest medicine to swallow.

Thanks to my sisters for all the little helps , all the rubbish that you both had thrown for me to pick and picking those i had thrown.

Thanks theclique for giving me a reason to "waste time", an excuse to be spastic, the power to find fun in nothing..

Thanks my buddies for the many random and interesting saturdays. We will spare both our notes and danz' swimming pool. As weird as it seemed, buddy days didnt manage to pull through after A lvls. >.<

Thanks my emo mates and whoever that stood by and/or with me to see/hear me emo.

Thanks to everyone and anyone.. Time is short and it's about 12.. so i shall hurry post this up!!

 

Ironically, i am wearing my "i am a student" shirt... so here it is..

 

Happy new year!!! Wishing...

• the world, PEACE!
• the economy, BOOM!
• and to everyone..best of ..
• HEALTH
• WEALTH
• to people collecting A lvl results:
• ACE AND ACE ONLY!!
• actually, more importantly, get into the dream course!

will post up my new year resolution another time ba..

 

 

here's a nice song! =)

STAY BEAUTIFUL - Taylor Swift

Cory's eyes are like a jungle
he smiles, it's like the radio
he whispers songs into my window
in words nobody knows
there's pretty girls on every corner
that watch him as he's walking home
saying, does he know
will you ever know

chorus:
you're beautiful
every little piece, love, don't you know
you're really gonna be someone, ask anyone
when you find everything you've looked for
i hope your life leads you back to my door
oh but if it don't, stay beautiful

cory finds another way to be
the highlight of my day
i'm taking pictures in my mind
so i can save them for a rainy day
it's hard to make conversation
when he's taking my breathe away
i should say, hey by the way...

repeat chorus
if you and i are a story
that never gets told
if what you are is a daydream
i'll never get to hold, at least you'll know
you're beautiful
every little piece, love, don't you know
you're really gonna be someone, ask anyone
when you find everything you've looked for
i hope your life leads you back to my front door
oh but if it don't, will you stay beautiful beautiful beautiful...
beautiful beautiful beautiful
ohh ohh ohhh
oh but if it don't
Stay Beautiful
Stay Beautiful

 

pardon the lyrics.. they are always stupid.. screw Cory too.. but well, the song is really nice.. the lyrics at the chorus is really sweet too.. after all, STAY BEAUTIFUL everyone!! =)

 

 

~虽然毕业了 诚心勇忠我牢记
一切已深深刻在 我心里*