dont disappear...

I have long thought of typing a post like this.. But seem like i am too lazy to do so...

Anyway, i am here now. Computers can really take you in and help u waste your time away lo. These days when i stayed at home, i can practically spend majority of my time sitting in front of this pretty rectangular screen and waste my time away. Not right lar, but you know? Those type of feeling like you feel like doing something yet there is nothing there to be done/you are too lazy to do so. And you are in this numb state where you just do something moderately fun [or something that is not unpleasant] just to let time pass. No sense of satisfaction, no sense of pleasure.. Take for example, playing computer games with no thrill, logging in to facebook once every too often, etc...

I need to do something more constructive....

~ trying to learn how to draw and paint using photoshop... Just managed to trace a pic drawn long logn time ago suing photoshop's pen tool... But still working on the colouring process which is getting no where.. >.< I WANT A TABLET!!!! [WACOM BAMBOO!!! *drool*]

Ah! Back to the topic.. Life is sure more lonely now that most of my guys friends are away from mainland. Yea, i miss schooling and schooling with my schoolmates... Every single part of it. Despite DHS now being more like DHGS [Dunman High Girls School] with females taking up about 3/4 of the student cohort, we guys [and girls] are a closely knitted bunch, especially so since we were together for about six years or more. Though i will be enter just 2 weeks after them [which is also quite very soon], i just have this complex feeling towards national service. I got to say when i was young/younger, i used to think that i will enter NS and be transformed into a fit, tanned and independent man in the two years. Yet now, i got little fear that my pals and myself, will enter this factory and emerge something not as positive... Hmm.. I guess we will become more 粗 in some way. Heard from my cousin that you bound to rid yourself of your allergies to vulgarities when you enter. There were also tales of people becoming alcohol addicts and picking up smoking habits after NS.. Well, hence i feel that slight unease..

Hmm, all aside, must have faith that we know what is right and what is wrong for ourselves. This is just the first step out of our cosy shelter and stepping out into the real world.. We bound to meet more types of people with very different mindset, different set of thinking. Yea...

 

We will adapt..

 

But dont disappear...

 

 

~静止了  所有的花开
遥远了  清晰了爱*