Friday, March 20, 2009

something new.. to me..

表达爱
作曲:林俊杰 作词:林怡凤
林俊杰:我们擦身而过
风卷起了沉睡的什麼
情绪在怂恿 撑开了懵懂
有一种冲动

廖君:决定不沉默
毕竟有感觉的人不多
我不想就此错过

林俊杰:眼睁睁看爱 廖君:就这样过吗
林俊杰:至少我和你 廖君:可以说说话
合:证明刚刚发生过什麼

用表白 换一份期待
能不能就少一点忐忑 无奈
心还 绕著你徘徊
难道 真是爱
泪水流过 才明白
爱不爱 原来心里早已 存在
幸福 不在千里外
让我勇敢 表达爱

NICE! HAHAHAHA! Ok.. It’s been a long long time since i heard something new that is chinese! Lyrics so so nia but i like the melody. =)

Block leave is ending soon!! And I am posted to some random place!!! Never mind la, i have learnt to suck thumb in BMT already so just continue to suck can already.

Busy with university applications. Really hope can get into the 1st choice lo. If I can get into that then I can focus on reading up on more related stuffs than to retake A levels. If not then got to chiong retake lo…

 

~能不能就少一点忐忑 无奈*

Thursday, March 12, 2009

bland lonesome…

Beautiful moon…
Been a long time since i last just stare at the moon and let my thoughts loose.

Down…
Every morning when i wake up, through the day, into the night, back into bed.. There’s nothing to lift my spirits. It’s either bland emotionless feel or sudden peak of stress and despair. Perhaps daniel is right… But it’s rooted within already. I guess i will go crazy thinking that i am going crazy. Nothing seem to drive that buggy feeling away. Manga didnt help, games didnt help, sleep made things worse… I know it’s stress, but it’s not like saying that “i should not be stress” and poof! it will be gone. It takes more than that… Far more than that…

Just wrote a GP essay. I think it’s crap. Bad standard. I need to get back into tune. GC spoilt. So un-studently.

i know negative feelings are of no benefit. So stop bugging me!!! Worrying wont do any good Roy! Get to work!!!

I must try to unclog myself..

emo song… resonate the pain sia…

会呼吸的痛
作词:姚若龙 作曲:宇恒
在东京铁塔 第一次眺望
看灯火模仿 坠落的星光
我终於到达 但却更悲伤
一个人完成 我们的梦想
你总说 时间还很多 你可以等我
以前我不懂得 未必明天 就有以后
想念是会呼吸的痛 它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛 看你的信会痛 连沈默也痛
遗憾是会呼吸的痛 它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛 恨不懂你会痛 想见不能见最痛
没看你脸上 张扬过哀伤
那是种多么 寂寞的倔强
你拆了城墙 让我去流浪
在原地等我 把自己捆绑
你没说 你也会软弱 需要依赖我
我就装不晓得 自由移动 自我地过
我发誓不再说谎了 多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了 灵魂像飘浮著 你在就好了
我发誓不让你等候 陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳 怕心被人触碰 你回来那就好了
能重来那就好了

 

sometimes i hope i am better at expressing myself… A song, a poem, a story… shrugs…

 

鼻子突然一酸…但眼泪往内流…

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

live believing…

Been a long time since i last blogged and i got to say that i feel entirely different now that i have experienced so many stuffs… NS, A level results, etc. The new “non-student” life is sure very different from the schooling years which i greatly enjoyed. I got to say that NS really opened me up to the greater variety of people and slapped me to my senses that “Hey! You are a kid no more” and i got to take up more responsibility for myself. Hence i am really grateful for my BMT experience. I got to say that Leopard Platoon 4 is made up of the best.. so much so that i cant ask for more. Fellow recruits were very cooperative, especially to their various in-charge [ICs] and there is a strong fighting spirit [what also known as the “LEOPARD SPIRIT”] lingering among us. They gave me an easy time while i was platoon IC and helped me a lot on the way [especially since i got “syahmi voice”.

I am really grateful to have landed in not just platoon 4 but also section 4, which is obviously the best section i can ask for. [老王卖瓜,自卖自夸] Wacky, funny, crazy, bitchy and all the other random adjective you can think of, packed into a forever-not-dust-free-despite-numerous-standbys bunk. Everyone armed with their unique character which made BMT experience not just bearable but very memorable. Down the line, we have kiwi king, a quarter Jew, a PSC scholar, me, a muscular+poetic midget [not that i am very tall myself], a pastor to be who has a flair for shouting “LJ”, an OOT, a horny dude who shares some inseparable bond with a guy who doesnt like to wear pants, an 8As bitch, a knowledgeable and dance-y  hongky, a platoon favourite and last but not least, our anti-Jew atheist. Thanks for all the memories and yes, all the best and take care till we meet again.

Our higher ups are really nice too. Scorpion aside, we are the other warrant officer company. Our platoon commander, WO Cheng took great care of us and gave me several take away in terms of life skills. I’m not to quote him but indeed, we are very fortunate people. Our sergeants are really nice people too, to the extend that they are, like what our OC said, brotherly to us. Our ever-seh PC sgt edlie, sgt brother vinleon, rocker sgt syahmi and my section commander sgt jiayao.. Got to thank them for their great “care for soldiers”. =)

Hope i didnt leak any classified info, if not it’s DB-able sia..

BMT is over… What’s next?

 

lotsa stuff sia…

 

This year is going to be a really challenging one for me and i hope my will can pull me through, allowing me to mature and grow through this experience. It sure feels as though i am being left behind while others overtake but well, i got 2 years to catch up. This time i got to do it right sia. Really appreciate all the kind words [jamie, an ting, shan, kjj, etc] but in the end, yea.. everyone runs one’s own race. Nevertheless, it’s still comforting to know that there are people there for you. Thanks again.

 

周杰伦《蜗牛》歌词

该不该搁下重重的壳
寻找到底哪里有蓝天
随着轻轻的风轻轻的飘
历经的伤都不感觉疼

我要一步一步往上爬
等待阳光静静看着它的脸
小小的天 有大大的梦想
重重的壳裹着着轻轻的仰望

我要一步一步往上爬
在最高点乘着叶片往前飞
小小的天 留过的泪和汗
总有一天我有属于我的天

任风吹干 留过的泪和汗
总有一天我有属于我的天

 

live believing..
the best is yet to be..
期待...
期待那一么天,我会有属于我的天…
一步一步往上爬吧…