bland lonesome…

Beautiful moon…
Been a long time since i last just stare at the moon and let my thoughts loose.

Down…
Every morning when i wake up, through the day, into the night, back into bed.. There’s nothing to lift my spirits. It’s either bland emotionless feel or sudden peak of stress and despair. Perhaps daniel is right… But it’s rooted within already. I guess i will go crazy thinking that i am going crazy. Nothing seem to drive that buggy feeling away. Manga didnt help, games didnt help, sleep made things worse… I know it’s stress, but it’s not like saying that “i should not be stress” and poof! it will be gone. It takes more than that… Far more than that…

Just wrote a GP essay. I think it’s crap. Bad standard. I need to get back into tune. GC spoilt. So un-studently.

i know negative feelings are of no benefit. So stop bugging me!!! Worrying wont do any good Roy! Get to work!!!

I must try to unclog myself..

emo song… resonate the pain sia…

会呼吸的痛
作词：姚若龙 作曲：宇恒
在东京铁塔 第一次眺望
看灯火模仿 坠落的星光
我终於到达 但却更悲伤
一个人完成 我们的梦想
你总说 时间还很多 你可以等我
以前我不懂得 未必明天 就有以后
想念是会呼吸的痛 它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛 看你的信会痛 连沈默也痛
遗憾是会呼吸的痛 它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛 恨不懂你会痛 想见不能见最痛
没看你脸上 张扬过哀伤
那是种多么 寂寞的倔强
你拆了城墙 让我去流浪
在原地等我 把自己捆绑
你没说 你也会软弱 需要依赖我
我就装不晓得 自由移动 自我地过
我发誓不再说谎了 多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了 灵魂像飘浮著 你在就好了
我发誓不让你等候 陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳 怕心被人触碰 你回来那就好了
能重来那就好了

 

sometimes i hope i am better at expressing myself… A song, a poem, a story… shrugs…

 

鼻子突然一酸…但眼泪往内流…