A sea of lecture notes on a bright sunny rainy day. I am just as confused as the weather.
Listen to a nice song...
[http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ddDuNf03-f8&feature=youtube_gdata_player]
And then back to work.
~怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念*
Sunday, April 15, 2012
下雨天
A sea of lecture notes on a bright sunny rainy day. I am just as confused as the weather.
Listen to a nice song...
[http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ddDuNf03-f8&feature=youtube_gdata_player]
And then back to work.
~怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念*
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Innocence.
somehow, this just resurfaced in my mind. First saw it during meranti...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cBwzrVJDSBw&feature=youtube_gdata_player
How i wish i was more innocent then (and now?). Love that jaw drop moment.
Nothing is going in. Thou shall sleep.
~this innocence is brilliant, i hope that it will stay.
this moment is perfect, please dont go away.*
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cBwzrVJDSBw&feature=youtube_gdata_player
How i wish i was more innocent then (and now?). Love that jaw drop moment.
Nothing is going in. Thou shall sleep.
~this innocence is brilliant, i hope that it will stay.
this moment is perfect, please dont go away.*
Monday, April 9, 2012
Mind vs Body
Argh. Spent the day on revising just a single set of lecture notes. After a quick count, there is abt 13 more for THIS module (there are two more modules besides this... -.-). Finals is coming in about a week's time and besides going through lecture notes, i SHOULD also do some past year papers.
To make matter worse, all those physical complications are just setting in. Most irritably, damn GERD. Got this perma-want-to-vomit feel. How to concentrate???
Speaking of this made me think of a bio term, blood-brain barrier (which refers to limit of entry of materials from the blood to the brain). I think i am experiencing a information-brain barrier. -.-
Ah, with all these gerd and inflammed joints, its kinda hard to sleep. Lying down makes it easier for reflux to happen. Ah well...
Shall try to sleep now and hopefully, wake up earlier tomorrow and study a little before travelling to school.
To make matter worse, all those physical complications are just setting in. Most irritably, damn GERD. Got this perma-want-to-vomit feel. How to concentrate???
Speaking of this made me think of a bio term, blood-brain barrier (which refers to limit of entry of materials from the blood to the brain). I think i am experiencing a information-brain barrier. -.-
Ah, with all these gerd and inflammed joints, its kinda hard to sleep. Lying down makes it easier for reflux to happen. Ah well...
Shall try to sleep now and hopefully, wake up earlier tomorrow and study a little before travelling to school.
Saturday, April 7, 2012
清明时节雨纷纷，一个男人想太多。
Its really some long time ago since I last posted something. Post army days to now uni life. So much have happened... Days just zoom pass like seconds and before i know it, its going to the end of another sem. Yes, that means FINALS!!! To be exaxt, in 10days time. These weeks have been superbly packed with assignments. Kinda overwhelming but yea, i am responsible for procrastinating till the week before submission (oh, its time i learn... =.=).
After all these mad rush to complete assignments, the after-submission's relief and insercurity combine into a complex feeling which my brain cannot exsctly process. Thus, it hangs - and i just stone. Got this very stoney feel where nothing seems right (no mood to study or play or rest). Just stone only.
Guess that this is a sign that i need some "breather". Need to do something different. Since it's 清明节, i decided to go on a solo journey and pay respect to my great grandma and my grandpa.
It never fails to rain during 清明节。As long as i could remember, it had always been this way. It brings out this solemn feel (rainy days are always emo...). While it poured, i sat at the back of the temple, waiting for the rain to subside. There was the soft chanting of prayer from the recordings amidst of the loud patters of the rain. I just stared blankly into the rain, and let my dense brain drift.
Random things filtered through... About life, how to live life, what am i doing with my life, do i have a life, is the the life that i want, how to improve on what i am living now.... (this is normal for this goon here so please dont alert the psychitrist). Reminded me of something that was brought out during meranti (a workshop): vulnerability. All these time i have always thought that i have to be a more confident person, steel my will and stay strong. I thought that that will make the "strongest" person - psychologically. But i was presented with an new perspective: embrace vulnerability (or so say the video). In fact, I found this really true! A strong-willed person will be able to pull through all adversity but i guess an even tougher person will be able to face uncertainty and accept his/her vulnerability. At this point in time, i definitely dont have such courage. Always "playing safe", doing the things that have more garantee for success rather than the things that i might have preferre to do otherwise. An interesting perspective which i suppose will be benefitial for this uptight wood-block. Haha! Still in quite a confused state now which multiple stuffs loaded into this limited brain of mine. Guess i need some time to zen. Lol!
Wonder how this post will turn out. Typed this on a blogging app...
Anyway, (while i will have to go back to school 3 days still) study break is here!! Wishing all an efficient week ahead! :)
After all these mad rush to complete assignments, the after-submission's relief and insercurity combine into a complex feeling which my brain cannot exsctly process. Thus, it hangs - and i just stone. Got this very stoney feel where nothing seems right (no mood to study or play or rest). Just stone only.
Guess that this is a sign that i need some "breather". Need to do something different. Since it's 清明节, i decided to go on a solo journey and pay respect to my great grandma and my grandpa.
It never fails to rain during 清明节。As long as i could remember, it had always been this way. It brings out this solemn feel (rainy days are always emo...). While it poured, i sat at the back of the temple, waiting for the rain to subside. There was the soft chanting of prayer from the recordings amidst of the loud patters of the rain. I just stared blankly into the rain, and let my dense brain drift.
Random things filtered through... About life, how to live life, what am i doing with my life, do i have a life, is the the life that i want, how to improve on what i am living now.... (this is normal for this goon here so please dont alert the psychitrist). Reminded me of something that was brought out during meranti (a workshop): vulnerability. All these time i have always thought that i have to be a more confident person, steel my will and stay strong. I thought that that will make the "strongest" person - psychologically. But i was presented with an new perspective: embrace vulnerability (or so say the video). In fact, I found this really true! A strong-willed person will be able to pull through all adversity but i guess an even tougher person will be able to face uncertainty and accept his/her vulnerability. At this point in time, i definitely dont have such courage. Always "playing safe", doing the things that have more garantee for success rather than the things that i might have preferre to do otherwise. An interesting perspective which i suppose will be benefitial for this uptight wood-block. Haha! Still in quite a confused state now which multiple stuffs loaded into this limited brain of mine. Guess i need some time to zen. Lol!
Wonder how this post will turn out. Typed this on a blogging app...
Anyway, (while i will have to go back to school 3 days still) study break is here!! Wishing all an efficient week ahead! :)