Tired. Well, not something unique. Just reach home after fetching sis whose lesson ended at 7 plus going 8. Tired as i am, i find myself unable to sleep whenever i am seated beside the driver. Name it as some sense of responsibility; feel that sleeping beside the driver may make the driver sleepy too, yea.. so usually dont sleep when sitting in front..
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ah crap.. vista service pack update took up so much of my time.. shall go sleep now.. aye.. since no one check this place, i shall repost this later.. =)
nitez world!!
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yea.. making back entries are really hard considering the lost in that "current" feel. So staying awake and staring out of the window from the front site is really thought provoking. Usually i will suggest that we open the window cuz i like the wind. But then, since the highway was plagued with large vehicles and buses from Malaysia which puke black fumes, we turn on the air-condition instead. Due to internal refraction, you then to be able to see certain part of you reflected on the side window. Alright. So it is not exactly 后视镜 but the idea is there lo. 3 angles of views: one from your eyes, one from the left side-mirror and one from the refraction. Aye. Many angles of views. The same applies for life too huh? Yet we then to see only from what we immediately see. [too bad there isnt a term for a higher level of seeing (e.g. : hear vs listen), observe sounds wrong here]
So while we advance with faster pace of life, we accelerate in the direction we think best benefit us. Yet have we notice if we are leaving anything behind? Perhaps limiting the scope to something nearer to me, while us youth continue in life, mature in our own ways. What do we leave behind in the trade off to pursue something that we think will make us grown ups? Well, there can be lots of stuffs, good or bad. We will have to leave those thumb sucking or nail biting habits in the pass. Yet do we at the same time, while emptying those childish load on our trucks, allow things which falsely make us adults to burden us? Are we ready for it?
We sought more freedom. Less control from parents. We want things our way. Hot blooded and constantly striving.Despite quietly in our hearts acknowledging that they meant good, the various curfews and teachings are just strings bounding us to earth and limiting our flight. We want to break free. Some of us succeeded totally, some partially. To a certain extent [i must remember to spell this word correctly], we do gain certain amount to space, no matter how little, as we age. Now looking back, with the various "if i had.." flashing through my mind, things might have been a lot different, and the previously irritating suggestions [though will still sound as irritating if they were to be said again] seem to make more sense then they previously would.
Thus we passively distant from our family as our solidifying wings scream to soar. Soar to our ambitions, our cliques, our hobbies and our lifestyle. Looking back, where are those merry times when there will be family outings to the zoo where those little hands will be hidden in those once smooth-skin hands, leading the little childish and undeveloped mind around the enclosures? Now, the once smooth-skin hands were scarred by wrinkles. The once stumpy cute fingers now clasp those once gigantic ones. We have grown while they have aged. Our perspective widen while theirs seem to shrink. We disagree more often and yet we know they will always be our side...
I got to say that i have failed to take good care of myself. A problem with a mental will stronger than the physical body. While selfishly thinking i carry the burden of a weak body plagued with various rubbish problems by myself, it is the "kapo" [kay-po] or rather the cant-care-less attitude that stress the parents. Personally, i see no reason for this stress but i guess that's the "mental" link between the child's problems and that of the parents. And more often than not, it goes one way.
So while we drink alcoholic drinks or buy 4D when the midnight clock strikes 12 to our birthday, while we stick our tongue into and get a taste of new stuffs such as romance [err.. i havent and dont plan to yet], we should always remember that no matter how much we mature, how much we morph and get adult-like, our bodies are not ours alone [despite conveniently assuming so most of the time]. This brings back Mr Sng's quote on morning's talk about discipline: for every freedom granted, it's attached with responsibility. Thus while we are granted with more freedom to do what we like [going out till the late night, burning midnight oil to mug, binge junk food], we have the responsibility to take good care of ourselves, both emotionally and physically.
wow, having said or typed rather so much. Time to dive back into the pile of homework. Shall pray hard that rain stop so can bring family to watch fireworks.. Shall post the post when i am free. =)
Yea. All in all, TAKE GOOD CARE OF OURSELVES and reflect on the things we are leaving behind as we pursuit our ideals. =)
MUG ON!!!
*现在说会不会太迟
你会不会笑我还是多像孩子~
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