Freedom

Are attachments in life more good or bad?

Attachments can come in many forms: to money, to fame, to love, to materialistic goods, to accomplishment, etc.

Too strong an attachment, it will be called obession. Lack of attachment, one will be lack a greater purpose in life.

Why be bothered by such stuff? Well, this guy here thinks too much. Now that its holidays, I have lots of time. Prior to holidays, life was hectic yet organised. Chasing after deadlines, reporting for lessons, a daily cycle of routines. During these days, I wished that there will be days where i can do the hundred and one things i (thought) i wanted to do. However, upon the end of exam, I remember being really glad but which eventually turned into a feeling of "emptiness". A more apt word may be 空虚. Seems like there is a lack of a greater meaning behind this happiness.

I realised that many of the things that i found entertaining prior to holidays seemed to have lost its entertainment value. It may be because these activities provided escapes from work. Now that there is no work to "escape" from, a large portion of the purpose of these activites is lost, hence losing its value.

In fact, i feel a sense of insecurity in my current lifestyle. It feels as though i am wasting my time away for the very sake of passing time. Why insecure? I think a good portion of it is also due to the fear that I may get too "nua" (dialect for being relaxed and perhaps slightly lazy). I try to instill some order into my life by signing up for biking, keeping up with tuition, play some guitar and practise drawing. However, there is still this lack of a greater purpose. Hmm...

I guess i should challenge myself with greater tasks. Perhaps produce some short manga, organise my photos (woah, thats gonna take long), pack my room, tidy the house, or even bake something??? But i think a great portion of it will also require some deadlin to be set. Or I guess i will just brush it aside and do some "time waster activities" such as playing some computer game or watching some anime where you dont exactly feel like doing so.

Conclusion: there's nothing new... too much of a good thing is bad and everything in moderation. Attachments... still a little too chim (deep) for me to handle. Perhaps with more wisdom, i will have a better answer.

Ok, bike theory lesson is starting. Hopefully i can have a more meaningful holiday. :)