thank you..

 

while everything seemed to go down the drain, people around me are giving me lots of help.. really appreciated the scheduling of the practice of chamber pieces to be after lunch so that i can save up some time yesterday.. thankz lots.. another commendable thing is how valerie and oxy are containing their stress while motivating the group.. it can be seen that they are well stressed about the concert but they didnt blast it on us.. constantly reminding us with smiles while suppressing their greatly anxious minds.. i think that it is really hard doing so but they have been doing a good job.. aye, concert is drawing near.. stress in life has been  increasing exponentially all these times.. lots of stuffs which i need to work on.. i know not why but mikes can seriously screw me up.. >.<

 

getting kinda upset with myself.. there is nothing in me which is, well, right.. put things simply.. i am screwed up..

 

seriously...

 

always having a feeling that i then to be over ambitious... the feeling like  蛤蟆想吃天鹅肉... then i will motivate myself with a "i can do it"...

 

is it motivation or self-disillusionment?

 

haiz.. i know not...

 

so it is going to rain today? still remembered 清明时节雨纷纷.. 仿佛在为已离去的人哭泣...

 

一切往往在失去了才懂得珍贵..

 

too many things to be done to make myself less screwed up..

 

天渐渐亮了，但眼前的一切依然被黑暗农照着....

 

阳光掠过窗沿，我在阴影里边...

 

至少有着影子和我作伴.. 无言的朋友..

 

对世界对我的关怀感到十分的感激与感动..

 

有时..... 我不配...

 

 

~心跳乱了节奏
梦也不自由*

今天的故事是...

 

the frequency of life is increasing.. facing lots of ups and downs in life in a really rushed manner.. one moment all were fine and the next, well, bad news.. and then back to norm again.. quote a simple example: i thought i lost my lecture notes for quantum physics [found out that day during lecture that it is not in my jia-pa-lang file] so i got the mastercopy from mr tan and got it photocopied.. and now upon reaching home, after arranging my stuffs here and there, it was soon starring straight into my face.. =.= i swear i searched high and low for it.. and now, my photosynthesis notes are gone along with my written notes.. >.<

 

life's getting tiring but while it may be termed sucky by some, but i think it is still tolerable. aye, stress is always staring straight into and through me ["us" i guess], constantly wondering if the remaining time is sufficient for me to catch up with all the revisions and get an A grade for every single sub. mr sng gave us a talk and it was about keeping ideals alive. aye. always have that very idealistic image of what i want my future to be but wonder if i can make them real..

 

fuels in life and what keeps me going will be the smiles on people faces and yes, the sky.. found myself looking up to the sky everyday at the parade square.. the weather seems to set the mood of the day for me.. it seems to tell a different story everyday.. always wished that i got a imba camera so that i can capture these beautiful stories.. sadly i dont possess any camera.. the clouds were like scales covering the entire sky today.. have this feeling of being complex yet uniform.. and there was the sun peeping through the clouds with a hue of orange.. really wonderful.. and then the previous day, there were these dark clouds which were in the shape of waves.. 所有的云都跑到我这里.. =) seemed to be lots of clouds in the sky these days.. they can plaster across the whole sky in multiple layers.. with one side dark and the other all sunny.. coupled with the refreshing breeze.. it is sure understanding.. feel as though they just read into you and well.. just feel understood...

 

westlife songs are really nice.. =) right minhua?

 

 

nice songs coupled with nice lyrics equates to magic..

"Every Little Thing You Do"

Hello, let me know if you hear me
Hello, if you want to be near
Let me know
And I'll never let you go
Hey love
When you ask what I feel, I say love
When you ask how I know
I say trust
And if that's not enough
It's every little thing you do
That makes me fall in love with you
There isn't a way that I can show you
Ever since I've come to know you
It's every little thing you say
That makes me wanna feel this WAY
There's not a thing that I can point to
'Cause it's every little thing you do
Don't ask why
Let's just feel what we feel
'Cause sometimes
It's the secret that keeps it alive
But if you need a reason why
(Chorus)
Is it your smile or your laugh or your heart?
Does it really matter why I love you?
Anywhere there's a crowd, you stand out
Can't you see why they can't ignore you
If you wanna know
Why I can't let go
Let me explain to you
That every little dream comes true
With every little thing you do
It's everything, everything you do
That makes me fall in love with you
It's everything, everything you say
That makes me feel this way

 

sweet lyrics..

 

here is the song. i am not sure about this being the mtv but well, aye.. focus on the song here..

 

still have chem retest tomorrow.. haven start studying.. >.<

 

 

 

 

~'Cause sometimes
It's the secret that keeps it alive*

fate...

 

believe in fate?

 

sometimes we wish that we had a better life.. sometimes we hope that we will be luckier.. cant fault this feeling but more importantly, it is how we allow ourselves to be put down by the angelic devil "fate".. learn how to stand up and after an "unlucky" slip.. but then again, is there a reason for this slip? the first thing to do and the most sensible thing to do isn't to point fingers.. but tend to the wounds.. not leave them to get inflame..

 

of course.. some open wounds heal by themselves.. others require more attention.. some heals completely.. most leave scars.. in this multi-dimension world, there is really more than one way to view a single thing.. go for the ideal: think win-win.. definitely not lose-lose..

 

心里的无奈需要关怀吧.. indeed it's hard and there is no exact medication.. but well, shrug.. i guess it takes lots of courage to do certain things..

 

加油.. [kinda like the most help i can render]

 

sins may be done.. but the greatest perhaps is not turning back [since it breeds more sins?] people make mistakes all the time.. and in fact, the worst thing to happen is when one cannot forgive oneself right? 原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己.. so said 原来 and i agree.. but it hurts the people around you.. seeing you locking yourself in the coffin of spikes does not make us feel any better..there must be a way.. sadly, i dont have that compass.. [jack stole it]

 

sigh.. 连风都不肯说，云也只悄悄的飘过..

 

人各有自己的烦恼.. what's the purpose of life? i guess it is unique to every individual...

 

it is indeed getting colder these days...

 

the idea of freezing led me to a few songs.. well, here is one nice one.. very direct:

《冻结》歌词
演唱歌手：
林俊杰

所属专辑：
《乐行者》

不小心回到那一天不小心一切又重演 
你如此完美的一切竟会出现在我的世界 
你说话不爱说第二遍但偏在情人节那一夜 
给我你心爱的项链说了三次对我的爱恋 
我那时糊涂不明白为何你会哭 
后知后觉以后领悟 
冻结那时间冻结初遇那一天 
冻结那爱恋冻结吻你那瞬间 
我也会疲倦 
你的项链在我身边带我穿梭回从前 
冻结那空间冻结有你的世界 
冻结那画面冻结不让它溶解 
我若是疲倦 
你的项链在我身边发光在我胸前 
你的项链在我身边陪伴著我过每一天

 

[the jing hui song.. haha.. "竟会出现在我的世界"]

 

也许时间是一种解药, 也是我现在正服下的毒药
no more time to spare.. mug on... i need more of this poison..

 

 

 

 

 

~再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰*

consciousness..

 

slipping out of consciousness is really scary.. seriously felt so during mass pe... screw all those stupid gases trapped in my stomach.. makes me feel like vomiting.. then it really hurts during running and situps..

 

but still glad to say that completed 10 rounds, 100 situps, 100 push ups and 100 squats.. err.. and only 15 pull ups.. feel bad and unhealthhy.. was really wobbling lo..

 

glad that there was danz there to accompany me with all the crazy drills.. felt greater lying on / near to the field and staring at the sky..

 

all of a sudden it just turn really black. without a warning, lightning flashed and thunder roared, in no time it was raining cats and dogs. [rofl!!!! i can still remember this sentence which we will all spam during compo writing in primary school days].. the rain was really heavy..

 

really tired now but cannot sleep yet.. too full.. headache is massaging my brain.. loads of homework.. really wonder how i can continue to stay buoyant.. luckily today had a 7PERIODS break.. 1ST EVER IN MY LIFE!!!! completed quite a few homeworks from the urgent list.. a few means that there are still more on that same list...

 

i am taking double testing.. meaning that for each test i take it twice.. get what i meant.. at least the tests now can still be retaken.. but not A levels sia.. [take deep breathe].. i must seriously do smthing or i will be seriously screwed up..

 

AND.. i enjoying singing a same song over and over again.. =)

 

here is one of these songs:

Tank 独唱情歌

词:姚若龙曲:tank
tank:下弦月星满天
像谁泪涟涟
一阵风一首歌摇晃思念
只恨年少爱逞强
为小事轻言离别
selina:在春天过冬天张眼睛冬眠
一颗心一种病不停落叶
旧情怎么那么长
打了绕了几千结
合:有没有一把剑
可以真斩了藕断丝连
有没有一条线
能缝扯散了缘
合:独唱情歌最苦涩
逃不了的折磨
当生死相许说出口
别后悬念依旧
合:独唱情歌最苦涩
管不住的离愁
赶下眉头又上心头
我好想再暖和你手
tank:下弦月星满天像谁泪涟涟
她微笑她捧花都看不见
我只听着你从前
捧着声张的誓言
selina:在春天过冬天张眼睛冬眠
看倔强带幸福越走越远
有时不愿让一点
最后却失去一切
selina:我站在柳絮扎眼寂寞胡同
谁在弄堂忽然沉默泪流

 

 

 

 

~有没有一条线
能缝扯散了缘*

lots of childhood memories..

 

remembered my childhood was dominated by lots of monsters.. pokemon and digimons and was really kinda crazy over them.. all the soundtracks and stuff.. particularly loved the digimon series [the very first one] realised that cartoons of the past are a lot more simplitfied then the current ones.

 

i can still remember all the wonderful soundtracks played when teh digimons evolve etc..

 

chanced upon this wonderful movie..

 

http://www.crunchyroll.com/media-36757/Digimon-Adventure-Movie-2-Bokura-no-War-Game-.html

 

to all  those digimon lovers: dont miss this..
personally, i found it really evoking [the childhood memories]...

 

to non-digimon lovers: this movie does highlight the issue of over-reliance on technology to ayee.. take a look if u pple are free! =)

 

 

was quite an emotional reunion.. lol..

 

 

some nice pic  grab from the net.. =)

*hope that live writer service [auto uploading of images] is functioning already

 

 

 

 

我依然还....

~带着小小年纪的天真*

a good friday...

today's Good Friday. holidays are always welcome..

it was kinda amazing.. =) have been out since morning about 10 till now. yupz. must go start on work le..

activity of the morning: family cycling.. =) [now butt pain]
suggested by my younger sis and well, was glad that it pulled through.. despite the exemption of the need of proposals and stuff, having a family activity can be quite hard at times [since we are all kinda occupied with individual stuffs]. btw, activity means something beside eating together or daily activities.

cycled to pasir ris park.. was really sunny [great contrast to the overcast sky as of now].. i really love the place.. hahha.. i know not why but aye, i love parks despite the point that there are really lots of people there [i dont usually like places with lots of people].. cousin celebrating 21st birthday so they got a bungalow at aloha. popped by to play with my cute little nephews.. =)

most rewarding times will be the meals when we will discuss stuffs and aye, talk about anything and everything.. after all that's the purpose of family activities huh? family bonding..

after yesterday's great impact, jumped on the suggestion to cut hair.. this time will be seriously mug MORE than previous.. haha.. aye.. 加油！

不能忘记你给与我的期待...

*****************
random photo time:

~my very cute and interesting nephew: JUNMING =) [easily excitable]

~a play-a-fool pic.. taken when going to river angbao xP

~since today is a family day, post a family pic to set the mood.. hahaha.. taken on dad's bday.. =) was eating lunch there just now too.. [elias mall]

****************************

wah.. 4 plus le.. woosh.. i'm off.. jiayou to the world..

**************
wth?? why did windows live writer screw up in posting of photos???? make me resort to using blogger.. x.X
**************

~我原谅不了我，
就请你当作我已不在*

destiny...

 

really tiring day.. woke up really tired.. and thinking back, must be due to yester-night's dream..

 

*******************

maths test = screwed

 

got back gp compre = screwed
1 / 9 for summary.. [ms toh: we marked leniently]

 

chemistry = screwed
[ bottom 5 rankings with Ss and Us]

********************

 

this so happen to be one of the many downs in life.. feeling sick, shit results, loads of homework, loads of REVISION not done, screwed up tests.. it seriously makes me wonder if there are anything which i can accomplish in life.. every recorded stuff of mine just seem so suck so much.. i guess there is nothing in particular that i can proudly say i accomplished.. argh..

 

aye.. life is a bed full of roses [positive aye?] no. that is what others may see while all the thorns are hidden beneath.

 

why do humans [mostly guys] like to grip on tightly to the things that hurt them most? is it due to the fear of forgetting? is it to create a reason for self-pity / excuse? all those little splinters which pierce the soul.. aye, they hurt.. fears, disappointment, etc.. are they suppose to be the norm feelings? shrug

 

原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪... 
seems like that is usually the case for me.. haha..

 

got this feeling that 有的事也许从一开始就已经决定了... destiny and fate.. do they exist? if only one's destiny are a pair of wings.. soar on the wings of destiny...

 

认真投决定命运的硬币，却不知道到底能去哪里...
indeed no idea..

 

 

 

 

i am going to finish using one more book of diary.. =)

 

 

 

 

how i wish i can speak without talking..

 

the power of verbal words are just too strong...

 

 

 

 

 

 

~阳光是温和的，但我怎么爱藏在阴影里边？在我心深处的阴暗面..

 

 

很喜欢的一首歌：

无尽的思念 - 林俊杰

墙角那朵枯萎的玫瑰
忘了为何要凋谢
散在地上撕落的岁月
又一天又一年没感觉
伤痕在心田
滚烫的蔓延
烟绕过发间你敷衍着抱歉
断了的琴弦
弹奏着从前
一起走过的路线没有终点
昏黄的光线
照射陈旧的水面
映出那朵玫瑰思念的画面
墙角那朵枯萎的玫瑰
忘了为何要凋谢
散在地上撕落的岁月
又一天又一年没感觉
风吹破欺骗你无法兑现
那年的夏天你许下的誓言
ho...
断了的琴弦
弹奏着从前
一起走过的路线没有终点
昏黄的光线
照射陈旧的水面
映出那朵玫瑰思念的画面
断了的琴弦
弹奏着从前
一起走过的路线没有终点
昏黄的光线
照射陈旧的水面
映出那朵玫瑰思念的画面
你走的那天我决定不掉泪
迎风撑着眼帘用力不眨眼

 

~not exactly a wonderful mtv [quite humorous to me] but aye.. it's the song here.. dont know how to post just song so aye..

 

 

 

 

 

~就连叹息影子听见
也是无言*

back... with mixed feelings..

 

cause of uneasiness, 3 causes on the suspect list.. so in the end, today's trip to the polyclinic is inconclusive.. but aye, i got an appointment for some scan or scope or whatever at changi hospital.. 9th of May 2.20pm.. hmm.. hope that does not clash with some big even or what.. hope so..

 

not surprisingly, what's dominating my mind wasnt to get well soon but hoping that it will do minimal disruption to my studies.. >.< damn.. getting out of mind...

 

stomach still feeling unwell..

 

here's a great song:

《分裂》歌词

演唱歌手：周杰伦

坐着我的摩托车 
载你缓缓的离开 
考不上好的学校 
可以不微笑就走 
把手慢慢交给我 
放下心中的困惑 
雨点从两旁划过 
割开两种精神的我 
经过老伯的家 
篮框变得好高 
爬过的那棵树 
又何时变得渺小 
这样也好 
开始没人注意到我 
开始没人注意到你我 
等雨变强之前 
我们将会分化软弱 
趁时间没发觉 
让我带着你离开 
没有了证明 
没有了空虚 
基于两种立场我会罩着你 
趁时间没发觉 
让我带着你离开 
这不是顽固 
这不是逃避 
没人帮着你走才快乐

 

 

 

random photos:

Sir Tan's wedding

 

~Dunman High School first ever Senior High Student Council's EXCO 07-08... imba ratio of 5:1 with a slightly more balanced ratio in the upcoming council of 4:2.. xP going to miss all the saigang that we have done / have been doing.. kinda sad that we are stepping down but aye.. all in the name of A levels... shall bring all the fond memories with me while i chiong through the process of mugging.. [回忆里带去]...

~have a look at Mr handsome there with the flower.. [realised that i am always squatting / rarely standing in photos taken that day] now then i realised that jinghui's, cindy's and Mr Tan's clothes are of the same shade.. wow.. hahhaa..

 

tuan bai / yu sheng showdown at Kevin's house

~guys hard at work.. preparing for steamboat.. but actually, they are just posing for the camera.. most credit goes to the 2 gals behind them..

~there was even a dish washing [service provider] chain..

~group photo!!! [with me and tienleng superbly big.. cuz we are in front]

~loading of ammo for war.. newspapers create the atmosphere.. we joked lots about having our war at various places [neighbour's front door, one someone's car in the carpark].. but eventually still stayed in kevin's house.. suggested that we line the walls with newspapers too..

~new invention.. pop corn [SALTY ONES.. >.<] in yu sheng.. credits to valerie, our emo team commander.. and me picking and well, eating those that drop out from the plate.. [quote oxy: think of the African kids]

~all nice and pretty.. this is the BEFORE photo.. [on the side note, we burried the lemon in the yusheng on the right so we got to dig it outand there u see it in someone's hand..]

~AFTER. btw, we did a mini countdown and then at the completiong of the countdown, the plate flew.. and i meant the plate, and of course the contents along with it.. out of the plate onto the newspaper..

~in the process of scooping the yusheng back into the plates and also eating some of them.. this is a sample size of what's term  A mouthful.. well,  if you have not realised, i am the person kneeling on the floor while they will just have their chopsticks over my head so that brings me to the next picture..

~aerial bombardment..

~since there were too much yusheng left, everyone was forced to split themselves into groups and take a photo and eat a mouthful of yusheng.. and here is the first trio.. [stupid me took the biggest mouth]

~lots of interesting expression.. yiwei forcing chopsticks down my throat so i bit them to prevent them from going down. danz and valerie doing some kinda sign at the back.. OH! me and jingwen wore smwat the same attire: top = guitar shirt, bot = pants/shorts with army design.. 不愧是6years friend... i kinda like kevin's expression..LOL

~remains of the mess.. not too bad lar.. but being responsible dunman high students.............. [next photo please]

~tissue papers, cloths, mops.. scrub scrub..junior were cleaning the dining table too..

~and to end it off... BUDDY DAY BUDDIES.. =D

 

credits to all photographers and tienleng's cam [though his flash a LITTLE sot sot].. still got lots of ncie photos for mr tan's wedding, etc.. meng shu-en haven send me.. x.X sc camp one oso..

 

well.. enough of slacking.. back to work!!! [slap slap]

 

~雨点从两旁划过 
割开两种精神的我*

just a little unwell...

argh suck.. that damn same feeling is haunting me again!! really bad feeling.. the feel of wanna puke poop jelly legged and faint feeling.. >.< weakling me.. this time coupled with a really bad blocked and runny nose.. [was it a gift from you yiwei?]

 

how i wish i can just sleep the day away like what i always does when i dont go to sch.. but this time is different.. >.< I CANT!!! maths test 2mr [haven start revision], carboxylic acid tutorial [haven finish] [if need to hand this up, then the next tutorial will be going through nitrogenous compound????], induction tutorial [obviously not done], ah yes.. photosynthesis [skipped a "sentence questions" - in other words only did mulitple choice].. still need to update my knowledge bank and do a reflection on an article which have to be read in dept. AHHH!!! i think i will just flop maths.. let me see.. there are like what 5 topics??

 

aiya.. time is never on an A level student's side.. 别想太多了... numb my senses and just chiong liaoz.. x.X

 

still have to go see doc and well.. POLYCLINICS HAVE REALLY LONG QUEUES!!! tired but life moves on...

 

 

 

random comment: yesterday's night was really starry and beautiful.. though it wasnt full moon but the moon was really bright.. a hard to chance by cloudless night..

 

random comment 2: i want to sign up singtel student plan... >.<

 

 

 

~我背你走到最后
能不能别想太多*

tone..

universities's open house is the place of freebies!!! yes.. proven again from NTU and NUS open house.. just been to both open house.. for the ntu one, went after the econs talk so didnt really spend lots of time there. [but still, kap quite a lot of stuff]

 

nus trip was rewarding [look at the number of freebies i kap (which is multiplied by 2 due to me kaping for yiwei oso)].. basically, the talks are more or less identical / similar to the one i attended the previous year. [come to think of it, i really kiasi huh?] was suppose to go with emo buddies but in the end none turned up.. T.T left with sisters + friend and yunshan [how's a sat without work?], who oso wanna listen to the med talk..and meet kek there since he had h3 till 1230..

 

summary:
1. i still wanna get into medicine
2. i have grown and look a little more mature because people are approaching me [the last time i went people just heck cared me] LOL
3. GREAT WALL RESTURANT IS A SCAMMER!! their man tou is seriously bleh...

 

was really glad that i went for the open house. it set the tone right! well, now i am indeed more STRESSED and determined. motto: go that extra mile.. straight As seems really far away.. haiz.. dont think too much le lar.. just chiong.. but at the same time, must remember not to overstretch my physical self.. something which i tend to forget..

 

thankz kek for the wonderful subway and chippy.. =) and the imba cam.. =) i will pay u back smhow.. aye..

 

damn moddle collapse for nothing.. there goes my long reply for youbao's questions!!! grr..

 

shall go do other work le.. chiong chiong chiong!!!

 

 

 

 

 

~锁起来 起来 这美丽的悲哀*

the night is forever young...

 

this is quire torturous for a person who sleeps at about 9... when we are perhaps not really suppose to sleep [because there are stuff to be done and it is just quite impossible for us to sleep due to the limited time we are given], they know not yet.. hahaha.. i hope they dont read this post like soon.. PT in the morning.. it's going to be a physically demanding and fun day.. hope i can stay alive throughout the camp.. =) hope hope hope..

 

woke up earlier to pack the camp stuff. got everything in and found out that the non-camp stuffs are even more heavy and of which include homework etc.. aye.

 

the camp started later for me because i reach school late. xP damn it sia. i am missing deadlines and meeting times.. >.< same like for maths lecture.. though i wake up so early, i must learn to 放下对家的“舍不得”and leave home earlier... LOL!

 

got the logs to 2B and then aye.. moved on.. and first up is Mr Kiw's talk.. was insightful and engaging, but a certain part of me think that while the teachings are correct, there is something amiss or something which i don’t exactly agree to but i cant point it out.

 

run out to take picture with guitar pple with cms [our volunteered photographer =) ]. got the stuffs to LT1 and aye.. took us quite some time get settled and aye.. finally taking the shots. tienleng was complaining that i wasn't there and he's bored. to a certain extend, it was quite comforting to hear that as [i kinda knew it le] it means that i will not be missing out too much due to it being scheduled as chambers instead of combines. =)

 

fly to ghim moh for the greatly shortened lunch...

 

back late and wet [from rain].. bad example.. mr teo then told us of the importance of communicating with student body.. indeed, we mayb too task orientated after all. quote him: IA is not about the loading of blazers.. ouch.. but that's true lar.. i guess i have failed in bring in the human touch as in outings for the sc etc. haiz. looks like we are ending our term soon too. so aye.. all the bestest to teh next batch of sc.. i see great potential in them.. a really interesting rojak of people..=) soar people.. no one said that life in council will be smoothsailing but aye, take it up with a positive mind and may the passion to serve never die down.

 

2 more days to the camp.. hope i can survive it.. oppz. theoratically just one more day.. now is one plus le. gosh.. shall go do a little reading on "photosynthesis".. =)

 

 

 

jiayou!!! WOOSSH!!!

 

 

 

~消失的下雨天
我好想再淋一遍*

a short spam..

 

days are running like seconds and weeks like minutes.. have been going back to school for 2 long days already. seemed long since it is suppose to be holiday. and for both days, I was walking at the fastest possible speed towards school and eventually reaching school all sweaty. P and C are interesting as much as it is tricky. realised that it is really easy for one to fall into various common assumptions. and I guess this happens frequently in life when we tend to judge and let the ideas/opinions affect how we react [paradigm is the word]. a bad habit i suppose.

 

aye! so much to be done for every single subjects. realised that failing is really easy, especially for the subject GP which passing criteria is already rather demanding. salute to all those who ace GP.  nevertheless, was glad that was able to pass the essay which i rewrote but of cause that is definitely not sufficient. WORK WORK!! met danz at the library. was a rather great feeling [I know not why], just doing work silently in the library and occasionally clear some doubt with the help rendered by danz. stepped out of the library and was greeted with the singing of the rain and the howling of the wind. impossible for us to go for lunch. but thing turned out quite well. went to sc room and kap a few garbage bags to take as raincoat. apparently, no one is mentally unsound enough to wear it so only the comical me wore it [didn't want to wet my back]. too bad ailyn din get her cam if not was said to have a photo of it. but it did serve me well =) except that it was oven inside [was wearing level jacket inside]..

 

alright.. OH! great!!!! DAD"S BACK FROM CHINA!! =) happy..

 

come to think of it.. i have yet to pack my stuff for tomorrow's camp. will miss my bed and stuff and my workdesk i guess..

 

was telling danz that a holiday is meant for the catching up of work and the repaying of the sleep debt, but it seem like both can never be met and as for sleep debt, it is expected to accumulate and increase even further.

 

 

danz... you will be fine.. =) give it a smile and brave your fear.. have FAITH in you.. [use ulti warhammer.. x)]

 

random photo:

~parallel tienleng.. thankz tienleng for the shot and zihui for the cam.. =) [too bad didn't have a "cleaners" photo]

 

 

 

 

 

 

~风在山路吹 过往的画面全都是我不对*

小雨点们的拥抱...

 

it just keep raining and raining this few days. rainy days are emo days. lolz. have this thought of seeing in the "eye" of a raindrop. falling form the sky, with fellow friends falling at the same speed [free fall], accelerating towards the unknown below. the image of the land becomes clearer and clearer and the size of things start to grow rapidly.. some friends landed on leaves of taller trees while others continue their journey down. then the view now switch to that of a person standing in the rain and looking skyward and now the many little droplet of rain end their journey of free fall as they bounce onto the person. then here came a gentle breeze and feel the rhythm of the rain on the skin and the soft coolness sweeping through the body. nourishing. =)

 

this is the first day of the holiday. and it is going to end soon. it will end early as it has started early [4am in the morning], so aye, junli.. no worries.. i will get enough sleep.. 6 hours should be enough ba. =)

 

though i woke up so early, was still a little late for guitar. i got to say guitar practice is really chiongzor sia. reach school then started chionging le. i spend a great deal of time trying to take attendance. it is not that i am not very efficient [just "not efficient", leave out the "very"]. 1. i am unsure of the names of the juniors and 2. there are 4 different rooms for the guitars!! and 3. my counting skills not good. so i go around the place, counting. quite comical and got a good laugh at myself. but eventually i got it settled [with a little (just a little) of male old yiwei (we got yiwei the first and yiwei the second in dhs guitar)]. happy.

 

chong tee is our sectional leader. to a certain extend, i think that respect should be given to whoever is out there leading. to certain extend i cannot tolerate people who insist their way on doing stuffs when there is someone out there giving instructions. i guess i know how i feel to have the crowd of people totally ignoring the instructions given. perhaps that will be not as productive as people who continue to practice while the ICs are talking. shrug. not arrowing people here but just a personal comment. perhaps it is just due to the point that i dislike noise of high amplitude [loudness].

 

was really hungry and cannot help but cheer when it was time for lunch. was surviving on tienleng's biscuits then. if there happen to be any ants, it is ALL OF TIENLENG'S FAULT BECAUSE HE DROP CRUMPS OF BISCULTS WITH SUGAR TOPPING ON OUR FLOOR!!! [i swear i didnt drop a single xP]. no lar.. tienleng ate with great care under my supervision and there are already ants in the room so yups. tienleng is not the cause. thanks tienleng for saving my stomach. it started raining like nobody's business around 11. but the good thing is the moment we were all prepared to leave, the rain became really small.. =) how understanding. so i got this a4 box lid and took it as my little cap. we set off in a group but broke into small groups when walking and me will be caught in the middle.. usually walking alone, but i like it.. =) singing to myself and enjoying things happening around me. no doubt i will miss out on the fun and stuff like gossips and lame jokes but i still enjoyed it. reached ghim moh and got our food as we guitar people took up one big table. then there was this really funny thing.we were teasing daniel about being gullible and i told him i was one years old and jingwen told him that she's a he / a guy. simplify things, lots of laughter. it's a very complicated and entertaining story with many many parts to it but shall not elaborate since it is pass my bed time. ok. here is an example.

 

*************

valerie [who met us there after acing her guitar exam with the temple guitar from kevin]: wah, roy. you eat a lot.

daniel: he have been in puberty for a long time

roy: how can? i am one years old.

daniel: oh yar..

us: LOL!

imagine one year old with cracked voice and chest hair [suggested by danz]

***********

valerie: everyone free today after guitar to go XXX [forgot place] G2000 to see concert attire?

since everyone is kinda busy, everyone started to find people as substitutes....

biker ping [seriously look like one with his cap and jacket]: i am about the same size as roy

xinzi [sitting beside me]: i also same size as roy

me: cannot, i puberty.. will grow very fast..

************

 

 

ok. these are just some of the example of the lunch nonsense flying around our table. when we were going back, the rain decided to give us a wash and yiwei [with his new umbrella (not new but i insist tat is is so since he REFUSE to use it o.O ) ] and i decided to run back. btw i left my little cap at ghimmoh..so when we got back, we were wet. so washed hair and weirdly it seemed but hair got really soft after that. funny rain.. OH YAR!!! daniel and chong tee got two same umbrella [came to light during lunch]. then daniel made a comment that his mom is currently overseas.. pause.. process.. what about chong tee.. his mom is in singapore.. HMMM.. lolz!!! that's not all.. part 2: following jingwen's prompt, it came to light that chong tee's birthday is ONE day after danz!!! and then daniel was like.. 这来得太突然了，我无法接受.. hahhha.. quite comical. then it was said that the umbrella was smth which was suppose to unite the family. funnyly far-fetched..

 

got to really thank chong tee for patiently teaching me how to count the semi quavers [though i am still quite unsure (prob lies in me)].. i seriously cannot see the science in music. it is more of magic to me. something amazing which i can appreciate but cannot grasp.

 

the way home was enjoyable. i walked alone again, in the middle again [xinzi and pingyan disappeared to the front (go pick fights, joking joking lolz); jingwen chongtee yiwei tienleng and danz at the back ].. sing song, enjoy the little drizzle and the occasional breeze is sure enjoyable.. then it was the mrt trip back. tienleng was trying to make me yawn by yawning-out-loud in front of me multiple times. i succeed in not yawning [till they got off then i yawn all i like], causing the people around to start yawning. hahaha. and we were talking about how jingwen is capable of everlasting and neverending stories. really comical trip back.

 

was alone again after tampines since danz go to yiwei's house for no idea what; use your imagination.... ahem. went to fairprice to get a loaf of bread and was on way back home again. drizzle drizzle drizzle. hugged the loaf of bread lightly so as not to let the crowded bus. singing my way back home again.. and here i am.. prepared to sleep le.. then again will have to wake up early tomorrow to complete maths assignment and hopefully biology tutorial. =)

 

加油people！！！woosh!

 

 

~就让回忆永远停在那里*

INFJ.. the multi-face..

check this out.. i tot this is really quite accurate..

http://mbtinebulous.com/wiki/index.php/INFJ

some of which felt as though it read through me [which is seriously scary]...

 

calling to all INFJs.. check this out and sees if it as accurate.. =)

 

as for other types, click on the link here:

http://mbtinebulous.com/whattype.html

realised some of which are not very elaborated.. the one for INFJ one is especially so.. no idea why...

 

need to be in school at 830am so off i go.. oh! it is beyond my bed time.. xP

 

to all: take care and rest well!!!

 

 

~心也喜欢一个人寂寞*

too much...

 

心里头有太多想分享的事... 搞笑的，愚蠢的，温暖的，etc... 但还是缺时间. 的确有很多事随着时间的流失而被遗忘。所以写日记能把自己经历过的事都记录下来。当时的心情，全都化成了字，锁在那纸上。

 

不知为何有一种感觉...觉得这世界太loud... 总觉得周围的声量太大，人们说话太大声... 总之，令我感到很烦。不知为何心里头默默期望着能平平淡淡的让自己的心静一静。也许是听觉太过sensitive了吧。[shrug] 每当自己开始感到烦躁时，最怕就是得和人对话。害怕因为自己的心情而变得insensitive to other's feeling. 所以当我赶到烦躁时，自己会变得更烦。烦什么？烦自己无法空自己的心情。 多次问自己为什么受罪的事自己身边的人？有其家人。在家的时间很少，到家时也已经很累了。父母姐妹因关心而唠叨，但忠言逆耳...幼稚的我还是无法立刻接受这些良言。虽然知道一切都是一番好意，但是还是无法控制的流露出了“烦”的表情。虽然大多不说话但那表情足以让他们感到好意没被appreciated. 我对别人的要求不高，时常把对别人的期望寄托在自己上．因为在这人生中，说能控制的，也只是自己；别人想怎么，是他们的自由．记得小时候总是在心里头对别人有着很高的期望，例如朋友因该怎么样怎么样，父母因该怎么样怎么样．时常因他们没做到心里想着的事而感到失望，甚至愤怒．随着我逐渐长大，我发现，不，那太自私了．别人有着自己的想法，自己的人则，没必要顾虑我的感受，更不许看我翻脸．所以把一切事都自己做．同时，希望不会辜负别人对自己的期望．

 

A 水准成绩公布了．自然的，连想起了明年即将是我们拿回成绩册。会想起了当时拿回Ｏ水准高级华文的成绩时的那心情时，难免感到很害怕。>.< 还是别想太多... 乘还有时间加把劲。未来就别想了.

 

PW 成绩将公布。希望能是个1... 但当时OP时的那意外令我有些没信心...

 

假日来了。天天都得回学校。而且还得在那儿过夜... 时间一样会继续的跑着，只求能在这假期能温习还不了解的科目。最近发现大家眼底都添了重重的眼袋或／和黑黑的黑眼圈...不知因该感到欣慰大家都在努力的拼搏或因大家身体都累了而感到担忧。

 

其中的一样攻克就是GP的三个问题。对我而言，易如反掌。平时emo的问题随便丢进几个就好了！=) emo是好的！！！！

 

那么和你们分享吧：

1. What are emotions? [why do we feel (happy, sad, etc)?] more of why our mind get stimulated..
2. Does it take poor people to make rich people rich?
3. Are humans born evil or good? if both, which at a bigger percentage?
4. What if one can control 100% of his brain at will?
5. What happen if one were to travel at a speed faster/slower than time? [if it is possible to cross time zone, it may be possible to move back or accelerate faster than time (but tat will require one to move after than the speed of light for one to reach the same spot but at a different time)] Will the being disappear into a different dimension, or will the person be living in the past/future? [thinking about time-space here]

 

人生是很玄的。所以emo也是因该的啊！[we shall not debate about emoing again.. lol]

 

 

since i can now post photos, i shall slowly post random photos.. credits to tienleng for this wonderful idea.. =)

~ sis and I at a place where food is sold [don't know how to call it because it doesn't seem like a restaurant nor a coffeeshop] and they serve food REALLY slowly that we got bored and decided to take photo.

~this is for biting a clam shell in the mixture of ikan billis and peanuts [toppings for porridge] .. ouch*

~ I met Mr Loh at desaru!!! really small world sia.. =)

~nice little garden in the fruit plantation with a nice little koi-filled pond

~ostrich eggs are really sturdy.. no heels allowed though [pressure greater  when surface area decrease (pressure=force/area)] =)

~@ crocodile farm: cute crocodiles [when they are young though].. those fat and huge ones are really scary

 

 

 

 

 

~想快快长大，才能保护她*