destiny...

 

really tiring day.. woke up really tired.. and thinking back, must be due to yester-night's dream..

 

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maths test = screwed

 

got back gp compre = screwed
1 / 9 for summary.. [ms toh: we marked leniently]

 

chemistry = screwed
[ bottom 5 rankings with Ss and Us]

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this so happen to be one of the many downs in life.. feeling sick, shit results, loads of homework, loads of REVISION not done, screwed up tests.. it seriously makes me wonder if there are anything which i can accomplish in life.. every recorded stuff of mine just seem so suck so much.. i guess there is nothing in particular that i can proudly say i accomplished.. argh..

 

aye.. life is a bed full of roses [positive aye?] no. that is what others may see while all the thorns are hidden beneath.

 

why do humans [mostly guys] like to grip on tightly to the things that hurt them most? is it due to the fear of forgetting? is it to create a reason for self-pity / excuse? all those little splinters which pierce the soul.. aye, they hurt.. fears, disappointment, etc.. are they suppose to be the norm feelings? shrug

 

原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪... 
seems like that is usually the case for me.. haha..

 

got this feeling that 有的事也许从一开始就已经决定了... destiny and fate.. do they exist? if only one's destiny are a pair of wings.. soar on the wings of destiny...

 

认真投决定命运的硬币，却不知道到底能去哪里...
indeed no idea..

 

 

 

 

i am going to finish using one more book of diary.. =)

 

 

 

 

how i wish i can speak without talking..

 

the power of verbal words are just too strong...

 

 

 

 

 

 

~阳光是温和的，但我怎么爱藏在阴影里边？在我心深处的阴暗面..

 

 

很喜欢的一首歌：

无尽的思念 - 林俊杰

墙角那朵枯萎的玫瑰
忘了为何要凋谢
散在地上撕落的岁月
又一天又一年没感觉
伤痕在心田
滚烫的蔓延
烟绕过发间你敷衍着抱歉
断了的琴弦
弹奏着从前
一起走过的路线没有终点
昏黄的光线
照射陈旧的水面
映出那朵玫瑰思念的画面
墙角那朵枯萎的玫瑰
忘了为何要凋谢
散在地上撕落的岁月
又一天又一年没感觉
风吹破欺骗你无法兑现
那年的夏天你许下的誓言
ho...
断了的琴弦
弹奏着从前
一起走过的路线没有终点
昏黄的光线
照射陈旧的水面
映出那朵玫瑰思念的画面
断了的琴弦
弹奏着从前
一起走过的路线没有终点
昏黄的光线
照射陈旧的水面
映出那朵玫瑰思念的画面
你走的那天我决定不掉泪
迎风撑着眼帘用力不眨眼

 

~not exactly a wonderful mtv [quite humorous to me] but aye.. it's the song here.. dont know how to post just song so aye..

 

 

 

 

 

~就连叹息影子听见
也是无言*