thank you..

 

while everything seemed to go down the drain, people around me are giving me lots of help.. really appreciated the scheduling of the practice of chamber pieces to be after lunch so that i can save up some time yesterday.. thankz lots.. another commendable thing is how valerie and oxy are containing their stress while motivating the group.. it can be seen that they are well stressed about the concert but they didnt blast it on us.. constantly reminding us with smiles while suppressing their greatly anxious minds.. i think that it is really hard doing so but they have been doing a good job.. aye, concert is drawing near.. stress in life has been  increasing exponentially all these times.. lots of stuffs which i need to work on.. i know not why but mikes can seriously screw me up.. >.<

 

getting kinda upset with myself.. there is nothing in me which is, well, right.. put things simply.. i am screwed up..

 

seriously...

 

always having a feeling that i then to be over ambitious... the feeling like  蛤蟆想吃天鹅肉... then i will motivate myself with a "i can do it"...

 

is it motivation or self-disillusionment?

 

haiz.. i know not...

 

so it is going to rain today? still remembered 清明时节雨纷纷.. 仿佛在为已离去的人哭泣...

 

一切往往在失去了才懂得珍贵..

 

too many things to be done to make myself less screwed up..

 

天渐渐亮了，但眼前的一切依然被黑暗农照着....

 

阳光掠过窗沿，我在阴影里边...

 

至少有着影子和我作伴.. 无言的朋友..

 

对世界对我的关怀感到十分的感激与感动..

 

有时..... 我不配...

 

 

~心跳乱了节奏
梦也不自由*