holy time of the day

testing out this new thing which i downloaded with the messenger update. it is called windows live writer. it allows you to type your post in the exact format of your blog!! i am going to try to post up a picture and pray hard that it works. x)

 

still have lots of homework to be done. must take more responsibility of my own work sia. most of the time have not been able to complete tutorials to the speed at which it has been gone through in class [there's a prob with the phrasing but just heck care it]. but then again, things are generally falling in place. homework list is surprisingly shrinking. manage to cancel things out of my LONG LONG list of homeworks. =) must go for more consultations and they are definitely USEFUL [call it a merit good/service  ba]. glad that we have really caring and helpful teachers.

 

muscles aching. 4km in approx 21 mins, 15 pull ups and 50 sit ups equate to muscle ache the next day and the day after next and perhaps after next. bleh. what a holy time of the day. 早睡早起 is a good habit. =) only that i am hungry now. it is kinda nice. siting at my workdesk with the desklamp on nia [dont want to wake family up] and the moon was just to my left, outside the window.. but it disappeared. ='(

 

call out to fellow bio students: dont be too affected by spa. look forward and make up for whats already done. use it as a motivation to chiong. fuse over it for a little time and well, pick yourself up and sprint again!

 

ook.. going to be 4 le. just spent approx 45mins blog hopping and blogging. back to work.. =)

 

 

~to lighten off all the high degree of stress level, here is spastic photo taken at desaru. nice relaxing place.. look up to yoke san for all the stress relieving..

 

~the beach is REALLY NICE.. specially the waves. 阳光宅男 comical mv.. lolz..

 

~one for bainian with parents.. =)

 

 

 

 

ok it is quite random but aye, testing out the posting of pic with this live writer thing. so far so good. posting of pic is easy. just drag and drop. haven click the publish key yet. xP here i go.. pray hard.

 

 

 

~难过
是因为闷了很久
是因为想了太多*

ASAP (as short as possible)

 

Hahahha.. like the title goes, hope to make this post as short as possible. Just got home and realised that my messenger life is screwed up. [sianz to the max] but anyway, felt kinda motivated [just a little] as I got back my chem retest result. Not exactly good but then mdm koh's comment of "good improvement" does reminded me about the need to take "baby steps" instead of quantum leaps [quote the frequently received comment: you [referring to me] are not superman]. I guess that I am not exactly satisfied not because of the marks but because I think that there are questions which are not meant to be faulted upon. I does not mean that there is something wrong with the marking but about me being careless and forgetful. Yes! I got to work hell harder. After all, there is only this one race [I don't plan for a re-race] so I guess it does not harm to go all the way out. Rephrase again; I meant I should go ALL the way out. This brings back fond memories dating back to my primary 6 years. Still remembered mrs ng quote for us: "all the way", simple yet it means a lot. Not halfway, not ¾ way but all the way. [miss Jet, you must be a young and energetic boy by now (= ]…

 

Got this stress management talk for assembly. And then we were made to do this test. ROFL! Guitar people a.k.a emo people, got mostly below 3 [I bet eddy get full marks]. Remembered vividly that headaches and stomachaches are symptoms of stress, guess this is why everyone is enjoying this common friend. To hell you [headache] go!! Shoo! Was telling junli that aye, I am negative and yet I am positive too!! Therefore, I am POLAR. Lol! =.= cannot help it lar. It was chemistry tutorial before assembly and I was still doing corrections for the hydroxyl reaction worksheet. And that was also the thing that I stared into upon opening my eyes after the suppose-to-be-relaxing imagination prompt [or perhaps self-disillusionment]. But indeed, I do hope to be able to spend a day at the seaside alone. xP [emo again]. Heard / read about love language before so wasn't particularly excited about it. I guess such talks will act as a good form of self-reflection and perhaps reminder to those who have already known those stuff mentioned to aye, slow down, look back, reflect and then chiong in the right direction. I guess the speaker is right too [I am the kind of person who like to get to the root of the problem; and I write journals!! (erm not exactly gp journals but diary entries)], there are ways to cope with stress, just choose one that best suits you. =)

 

Wah! It is relatively late for me now [I try to cultivate the habit of 早睡早起] hence I sleep lie on my bed at about 9 plus. But then again, I usually fail to wake up or rather I choose not to wake up because aye, sleep is important. Must weigh the importance of finishing work or a tired day in school. So usually I will choose to sleep more on days which have stuff like tests [which is also, rather common]. Damn msn. Please revive. Looking at my holidays, it is as good as none. Sigh…

 

 

 

 

Yet, I love life.. polar me.. Hahaha..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

~原来最疼痛的表情 竟是没有情绪
原来最残忍的画面 可以甜言蜜语*

回到了过去… 回想起来，我是否变了…

 

Many many thanks to an ting for all the photos. It is a pity that I don't have time to go through all the photos because tomorrow have bio spa and I also have a take home test to gun down? I am really impressed by the well organisation of the photos. Good job sia… like I use to say, "photos freeze time." Since time [and tide] waits for no man [and woman], photos being able to capture time is indeed a great invention. All the stupid spastic yet happy times together… 真叫人回味与怀念. The same feeling of "glad that it happened, yet sad that it's over", 有一种"哭笑不得"的感觉. T.T union =). Perhaps it's =') haha. 我没有莎士比亚的天分，怎能写出我们的喜怒哀乐…
on the side note, I miss LILI, Jason and well, yuxin too…

 

Back to the present, life is much less carefree [reframed from using the term "damn stressful" – universal knowledge]. Was reflecting about what being most important and what not. These can be really difficult questions to answer. As a student, most important thing is to study, get good grades, get a decent certificate and graduate and contribute to the society and the "and"s continues. But then again, that doesn't stop us from being human, to me, what of greater importance is well, interpersonal relationship, contributing to the society, and helping others… I guess there are some overlaps but aye! There are some stuffs which are more important than others and yet, there are different ways to weigh the same issue. There is no right or wrong in my opinion, just agreeing or disagreeing ba. I guess I am a person who stands closely with what I deems as correct [who doesn't] but I meant, well, someone who others will term as too particular ba. Looking back and comparing it with the current "me", I wonder how much I have changed. For the better or worse I know not, but yes, life is a road I wanna keep going. I feel life is all about experiences, lessons and enrichment. Whatever I am doing, did, have done, I think through/emo and thought, hmm, if I had not done it this way, could there be a better way then? Gee. Guess that's make me emo, or well, perhaps, waste huge bulk of my life. in fact, I rather sacrifice sleep just to write diary [which I do every night =)], much like people sacrificing sleep to game. That brings me to the point of addiction, bleh, perhaps I am just addicted to reflecting. And judging on the heated argument debate on "if one should be emo" or "is emo good for health" [shrug, sounds a little gp x.X], I will stand on the side of pro-emo and by the way, there is a difference between emo and self-pity. I guess people fall into the habit of "self-pity" like for example, thinking that the whole world is coming to get you and get upset over it [overly exaggerated]. That is NOT what emo is about. Hahahahha. Or at least that is not what I will term emo as. Emo is more of being reflective.

 

So much so for emoing on the topic emo. Well, guess it is time for me to bury myself back into work. I may get addicted to mugging too, and I starting to feel it already. X.X

 

As much as it like on the tracks, life is long, tedious, tiring, blah blah... But it's a matter of will. Determination, or perhaps "苦中作乐" would have been a really useful habit [I am working on that]. Will like to take this opportunity to congratulate Daniel! We did 10 rounds round the track and that's a whooping 4km!!!! just like in life, as much as we wish to achieve certain goals which are seemingly too far and impossible, it will be useful on focusing on small steps. And yes, not focus on the downs of life [parallel to the cramps and stitches, the weary feet, aching back,etc], but on ways to motivate ourselves. There are people who are able to thruster over you in certain aspects [track people blasting pass us], but 别让别人的威风灭自己的志气… in the end, we still made it! Physically drained yet mentally and spiritually accomplished. We even did more sit-ups and pull-ups. =) good job sia… what's won is not just 10 rounds round the track but a great boost in the level of confidence and the strengthening of the will. When there is a will, there's a way… [provided one works for it of course]…

 

Many thankz to JUNLI for always being so encouraging… all the luck, 我就收下了… I need them. X) shall give you too!! Hahaaha..

 

There are much more areas which I need to work on. Time management will be one. I got this major weakness of misjudging time, resulting to me to fail in many aspects of life, ranging form simple stuff like being late for meeting time to the totally flopping of deadlines. Will work on that and hopefully, make me a more efficient person.

 

Random rubbish: take cold showers –they stimulate your senses and clears your mind… xP

 

 

 

 

 

Here goes the lyrics for周杰伦-回到过去

 

词：刘耕宏 曲：周杰伦 编曲：林迈可

一盏黄黄旧旧的灯 时间在旁闷不吭声 寂寞下手毫无分寸
不懂得轻重之分 沉默支撑跃过陌生 
静静看著凌晨黄昏 你的身影 失去平衡 慢慢下沉
黑暗已在空中盘旋 该往哪我看不见 
也许爱在梦的另一端 无法存活在真实的空间
想回到过去 试著抱你在怀里 羞怯的脸带有一点稚气 
想看你的看的世界，想在你梦的画面
祇要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜 想回到过去 试著让故事继续 
至少不再让你离我而去 分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧 这样挽留不知还来不来得及 想回到过去 
思绪不断阻挡著回忆播放 盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去 
一转身孤单已躺在身旁

 

 

 

 

 

~脸上微笑 心舍不得*

Shutting down… or is it shutting out…

 

I cannot put my feelings to words. It is just too complicated. Too conflicting. Perhaps it is due to me being too tired, or something else. Shrug. One side of me seem to want to do so much and so much while the other side is switching off. Like of now, so many homework awaits me and one part of me is drawn to tackle them while the other is practically shutting down.

 

Aye. Today is buddy day no.X. I lost count [actually I wasn't even counting because it is a long term thing] hence naming it X. Tien Leng did not join us because there's SJ, and in other words, no photos. But anyway, not like I am going to use any photos because I have yet to learn how to add photos here [Microsoft words] and post it straight. Reached home really late and was really full. That's dinner with Kevin and my fellow guitar mates, danz and eddy. As usual, we were talking about life and stress, constantly spiced up with kevin's complain of the tendergrill being carbon chicken. Oh yar, forgot to mention that we were eating in burgerking [realised that whitesands got a great variety of food provider [cannot think of a better word; was thinking of econ's goods and services]. After guitar, we [danz, eddy and yiwei] are suppose to take his [Kevin] car to a place for dinner. But in the end, we let the juniors, who are carrying like so many guitars, and min hua take his car. I guess they need it more than us guys. =]

 

It was really a ling way back to pasir ris, the place which we decide to have our dinner. It is evident that all of us are all beat and weary. So much so that we started doing weird stuff like ermz… taking photos and………. yiwei licking people??!?!?! And we had a sing aloud session which earned us quite some stares from the public which we conveniently choose to ignore due to our tired and hungry state. When we finally reached whitesands [yiwei went home to eat… hope he did not lick his way back home], all shocked to realised that in fact, Kevin is not here yet!!!!! O.o Haha. So we went to the wangzai at the 3^rd storey. And upon sitting down, we were informed almost in interval of 1second that they have closed shop. It goes like this: "我们要关店了，现在只有面 [one second interval]. Oh, 对不起。买完了。" >.< and we only just sat down. We spent the remaining time deciding on a place to eat and us being all hungry, was ok with any place so in the end it ended up with no place. Till finally, Kevin arrived, we settled down for bk [Kevin said it had been some time since he last ate it]. We got our respective meals and in the end, all the fries were emptied onto a try and of which is made up of 3 large and one small pack. And it forms a huge mountain. Kevin then shared his experience with some AP snooker shop. To keep things simple, moral of the story: don't mess with Kevin. ROFL! Joking. ACTUAL moral of the story: learn to be considerate.

 

Eddy still got to take train home, but it's ok, so said danz, cuz he got sms to accompany him. Then me and danz took his car home cuz on the way. Took notice of the really beautiful and bright moon. I feel that I can just stare my night away. I meant stare at the moon. Then Kevin was shaking his head in the car, terming us emo king and prince. LOL. Then we shot back a claim of him staring at his lava lamp for hours. ROFL.

 

Woke up at 9 plus and still felt totally drained. Realized that I was the only person at home as all other family members had left the house. Really nice of them to let me continue to sleep, though I stil damn tired. Really appreciate. =)

 

Was the first to reach for buddy day! Gosh! Amazing and then started with carbonyl and eventually finishing and also gp reflection before going for lunch which was by then 3. Ate at Loyang and was as usual, mac-chicken extra lettuce. I got two of that [not the set, as I am kinda sick of fries due to yesterday] while they each got a set. We then moved off to the bread shop nearby and felt an amplified pinched on our pockets. The breads sold were all about 1.10 and they were all so many times bigger than a mac-chicken. Lolz. Yiwei got a picture of the bread being approximately the size of his face. ROFL!

 

We were all a tired bunch of people. And evident from us sprouting nonsense to boost each other's moral. Hahaha. I guess I have stoned enough. I can hardly keep my posture straight. Yes, I am shutting down. I have this weird urge to scream something like "shut up" whenever it gets a little more noisy. I wonder why there is this very violent side of me hidden within. Sometimes I just walk away, too tired to talk, too tired to care about anything besides nature. Feel as though I am missing out all the details of nature while chionging. Fantasize on a day of which I can just stone at the breakwater for a day by myself, enjoy the wind, enjoy the music of nature and sort out my thoughts then. Progress into the night, enjoy the night sky, count the stars and stare at the moon. Stare into the dark void of the empty woods, then back at the sea illuminated by the light from the passing vessels. Enjoy the moisture in the cool and salty breeze……

 

Yet such luxury will never be possible, considering our all filled up schedule. Even the up coming break is kinda filled up… haiz. Looking back, was kinda regretful that I have not chiong as hard since the last long break. [on the other hand, I may hav snapped by no if I had started since then]. Aye, there are too many "if only"s in life.. more importantly, life goes on.. so aye, we go to move on too. Fuel myself and get going again.

 

 

 

 

 

=)

 

 

 

~First, you say you won't, then you say you will.
You keep me hanging on, and we're not moving on.*

Starting a day…

私奔到月球

歌手：五月天+陈绮贞

专辑：离开地球的表面

其实你
是个心狠又手辣
的小偷

我的心
我的呼吸和名字
都偷走

你才是
绑架我的凶手

机车後座的我
吹着风
逃离了平庸

这星球
天天有五十亿人
在错过

多幸运
有你一起看星星
在争宠

这一刻
不再问为什麽

不再去猜测人和人
心和心
有什麽不同

一二三
牵着手
四五六
抬起头

七八九
我们私奔到月球

让双脚
去腾空
让我们
去感受

那无忧的真空
那月色纯真的感动

当你说
太聪明往往还是
会寂寞

我笑着
倾听孤单终结後
的静寞

看月亮
像夜空的瞳孔

静静凝视你我
和我们闹嚷的星球

靠近你
怎麽突然两个人
都词穷

让心跳
像是野火燎原般
的汹涌

这一刻
让命运也沉默

让脚尖划过天和天
地和地
缘分的宇宙

一二三
牵着手
四五六
抬起头

七八九
我们私奔到月球

让双脚
去腾空
让我们
去感受

那无忧的真空
那月色纯真的感动

 

Cute song. Cant seem to sleep leh. Lie on bed since 9plus and surprising, woke up at 3am. X.X bored me came here to post a really short post. Really surprised to find people still online. Gee… hope they are those who leave their com on and run to sleep de. Do get sufficient rest!!!

 

Back to work…

 

Really glad that don't have to travel down to school hostel by 630pm. =)

 

 

Back to mugging…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

~I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!*

Emo =)

说不清的思绪…

 

Short post here. I am getting the hang of it… =)

 

Nowadays, with the results from tests and the huge amount of homework, it is getting drilled into my head that yes, it is time for "no life" mode. Was complaining that I have no life or what so ever but now is serious. Just do whatever should be done and CHIONG in everything sia.

 

Amazingly, I slept at 9plus yesterday. I meant I was planning to do so till food came home with mom and dad. Expensive sushi. Asked if can keep for the next day and the answer was no. so got to eat. I usually cannot sleep with a filled stomach. And by the way, decided to sleep at 9 because for the whole day, I was unable to focus. Heavy-headed. Get really breathless at times of the day [like now]. Chest pain. >.<

 

Woke up at 6, though I plan to wake up at 3 [alarm didn't wake me up], feeling weird. One part of me is feeling really sick, yet the sick side of me was masked by a some what cheerful side of me. I just felt, well, happy! [Crazy Boy!] I think so sia, I am getting kixiao I think. Lolz. The day proceeded fine. Besides the few pokes regarding my shortened hair [some are quite funny], it's just another fine day. =)

 

Gotten back bio test. Yups, another reminder for me to buck up. =) they just seem to all unite and shout sense into me… or I should say, chant "mug" in my ears. Yes, there are hell lots of stuff on my list to be done. I realised that I have been planning like what I can do like anytime and anywhere if I have the time. Catching up is really hard; first you got to do the stuff now and secondly you are required to do the lagging stuffs. Learning to see each and every piece of work as a learning tool. Afterall, it is A levels that really matters rite? Personally I think there is more than that. I think that it is how lessons on coping with stress, and more importantly, the attitude in life that is of most importance, but well, A levels don't test that. Shrug.

 

As much as I love to be alone, there are always great supports from my friends and family. Great, fun and interesting stuffs happen in school and spicing up my life, credits to my ever entertaining bunch of buddies. Love school. On the other hand, home is a place I love to return to. Yet, 很遗憾的是, upon reaching home, will be stucked to the mentality of doing work or take a break. Upon times of stress, I just get too quiet [as in I don't talk to people and don't want people to talk to me]. When asked a question, I then to reply softly [I guess] so much so that I need to repeat like 5 times before it is understood/heard. In the process, friction occurs. Common stuff like being asked to take dinner, and aye, I chiong through my meals, which is bad. Realized that I am spending lesser and lesser time with family. Thanks to them for being ever-so-understanding or at least they tried. =) grateful.

 

Hope that through all these chionging and pia-ing, I will stay me and stay humane. I am kinda afraid that I may eventually lose sight of myself, who I am or what I use to be, the things I hold on to… I guess that is why I like to emo and again, emo doesn't mean feeling sad or what but just reflecting. =) enjoy reflecting upon myself.

 

 

Shall go for the personal reflection part in my diary. =)

 

 

Roy loves to 保持沉默. Glad that I managed to complete econs reflection when the canteen was all banging [lion dance]. Not that I don't like the lion dance but aye, my ears hurt. >.< level jacket is sure useful. =)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

~I will meet you when my chores are through*

Side note for bj: no worries, that's what's exco is for.. don't go too hard on yourself eh? Take care lo!! =)

Sorry… thankz…

 

Sianz. Whole day trying to copy and paste the newspaper articles from the online straits time to words and saving them. Damn it. Damn tired liaoz. And I find limbs feeling cold and sweating at the same time, just like on buddy day. Z.Z kinda surrounded in the middle of stuff; books, guitar, chairs, bags, etc. okok, that is kinda random. And one of it's the bag of goodies from friendship day… taking a short break, I dug out the notes found inside to read. Yes, to me, it's the note that is of most value. =) it's 感人的 lo to receive so many stuff. THANKS for spending so much effort to get these stuffs out. Shall do a proper post regarding those stuff when I have the time to do so. And SORRY for not giving my message. Seems like I cannot get it out by this week again sia. Argh. On the verge of piaking on the laptop's keyboard le. Btw I have still yet to find time to finish all the stuff on my list. Z.z

 

Having much trouble setting a date to go for the ns check up…

 

 

 

 

 

 

To buddy day buddies:

To Daniel: aye, white love is a great song… I prefer the guitar singing it though... =)

To Yiwei: I don't eat fishballs like anytime and anywhere…

To Tienleng: next time we don't burn disk at daniel's house, we burn his house… LOL! I meant we burn those people who kap out pavilion.

 

 

To all those sick people (junli, berlinda, yunshan, Royston, Amelia, etc):
GET WELL SOON!

 

To all those stressed up people (everyone):

• Step 1, SMILE!
  
• Step 2, try to RELIEVE STRESS [destress is a invalid word, I meant no such word (ms toh said it caused by confusion with the word "distress"].
  
• Step 3 [if the above won't work], then go to sleep… [but usually will be too stress to sleep ba]
  

 

Therefore, in conclusion, just try your best.

 

 

 

Live life to the fullest… in case it ends the very next moment…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

~时间已将我掩埋*

最近… 含着悲伤…

最近
李圣杰

你最近不说话
怎麽了为什麽
是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

爱我却不能给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福

 

 

 

 

Really sad song… we, the remaining 3 buddies [yiwei got to leave earlier], were hooked on this song. Sad sad sad… "我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的".. agrh. Bleh… the song is affecting and infecting me… though I don't really understand these feelings totally. The image painted and the tone's sad.

 

Yawns. Tired. Shall not continue le. Later tio scolding again. Buddy day was rather so-so… reached late so nothing much can be done. But glad that I cleared a few of my doubts. Jelly beans make good tidbit for mugging session and it taste a lot better when it is thrown into the air and even more so when it drops on the floor and then pick it up and throw it again. Haha.

 

 

 

 

Lost my long hair and short hair stands by nature. =)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

~不想再约束, 不要再痛苦*

Yay! I am learning how to post short posts!

 

关怀方式… 有很多…

关怀方式

男︰寂寞開在心事旁　隨手种一些傷感

不讓星星來窺探　找個沉默的夜晚

找個沉默的夜晚　不讓星星來窺探

隨手种一些傷感　寂寞開在心事旁

合︰我的關懷方式是你無法察覺的悲涼

只能在你不經意時才鎖上我心房

你往常的親切友善　是我今生的遺憾

受傷後無悔的埋在不流露的臉上

女︰寂寞開在心事旁　隨手种一些傷感

不讓星星來窺探　找個沉默的夜晚

找個沉默的夜晚　不讓星星來窺探

隨手种一些傷感　寂寞開在心事旁

＊女︰我的關懷方式是你無法察覺的悲涼

只能在你不經意時才鎖上我心房

你往常的親切友善　是我今生的遺憾

受傷後無悔的埋在不流露的臉上

重唱　＊

Nice vintage song. Heard it while walking back to canteen after guitar. Remembered it as one of the few songs we learnt when we step into guitar, all fresh and unorganized, and looking at things now, we are a well established club. =) many thankz to Kevin for bring us to this current state, still chionging for a concert too. Funny sia. Gosh, things are getting more and more complicated. Kevin came into the room and said, " 最高兴就是看到你的笑".. I thought that he was niaoing some girls [as usual, lol!], but to my surprise, he was talking to ME!!! Hahhhahaha. Shot a look at eddy. And he gave me a corny look. ROFL!!! So funny. I feel so loved by GUYs. I should consider being a girl next life. ROFL.. but gosh, I am straight. Nice song, nice lyrics..

Really glad that weekend's here!! WOOTZ!! Looking forward to buddy day. But this time, I didn't even realized that it is weekend again. Gosh! Meaning that time flew too fast. But got to go settle some other stuffs first in the morning so it will be buddy afternoon to evening ba. I suddenly got this urge to go shave my head during lesson today. Kinda random but yes. Told yiwei the very instant and he commented that it will be helpful for people who cannot differentiate us. Lolz. I shall consider again. Haha. If I do, I shall pack up the remains and pass it to you jing wen. LOL. Ok, that's an inside joke.

Friendship day was really filling. THANKZ FOR ALL THE WONDERFULL GIFTS!! 太令人感动了！即使大家那么忙还抽空做这些礼物… I have yet the time to enjoy the nice letters people bothered to write. Feel guilty that I give only bloody cheapskate thing and also for giving the note for most people late. I will squeeze them out this weekend ba. HOPEFULLY!

Seems like everyone's falling sick.. headache is a common friend [损友]. Got a great friend whom I can't get off my back. Yes, my backache. X.X

Overwhelmed. By what seeming to be both everything and yet nothing…… I know not what it is…

这世界太复杂，也美在于这一点…

~寂寞開在心事旁　隨手种一些傷感 不讓星星來窺探　找個沉默的夜晚*

Woot! A short post! =D

终于累了….

=)

 

Just been to 冯老师 [aka冯爸]'s house. We address him as such due to his unforgettable, rousing words of "只要我今天还站着，我就是你们永远的冯爸". Haha. Something along these lines, after all what's unforgettable is his expression and his zest-filled expression. Was suppose to meet Daniel at mac for breakfast but a couple of stuff went really wrong. Here it goes:

1. Alarm clock ran out of battery, hence causing me to wake up at 8.30, to see daniel's reply for my msg of "hey wanna eat breakfast tomorrow? Lol." Reply being: ok. 8.20 at mac. -_- 8.30 le and I am still at home.
   
2. Too many macs in Singapore. The first thought of mac will be none other than whitesands mac. But then again, mountain tortoise me forgotten that there IS a mac in tm. I suppose I need certain reminders for stuff as my brain synapses are kinda inflexible at most of the time. But didn't regret going there cuz I get to see junli working hard [gosh, working on cny!] with a cute cap. It is not exactly hard to see him cuz he is really tall. But mac's business is GOOD! No time to talk to him. >.<
   
3. Waiting for nothing. Upon reaching whitesands mac, [still thinking that Daniel is stoning inside] I toured the mac thrice [2^nd storey inclusive]. No smell of Daniel; [gee. Mentioning this makes me think of yiwei and how he smell colours from people's scent] just smell of mac food. It NVR occurred to me that Daniel is in fact at tm and perhaps, already with the bunch of 4h people stoning and waiting for late comers like me. I, unwitted-ly [no such word], assumed that Daniel went to the ttoilet. X.X tick tock tick tock. Finally cannot tahan le then msg him. Tick tock tick tock. No reply. T.T waste money to call him and was kinda shocked that he was already there. I practically blared, "you left liao also never tell me??!?!?!" thinking back, I suppose he must be filled with "?"s.
   

 

And, kinda unsurprisingly, I am not the latest. =) or at least, not we are not ready to set off yet. Jiexin and yokesan when to get the cake [we celebrating fengba's bdae together (= ]. 好人sia. Jamie still asleep at home and so is jing hui. ROFL. Valerie on the way. From boon lay to tamp. Gee. Tiring I suppose. Jing hui said he will fly down in 5 mins. And I suppose he really got here in about less than 15 minutes to it is amazing; considering that he said he will reach in 5 minutes when he just wake up. So in the meantime, we were writing fengba's bday card. There is no table in the mrt station so must piak on the noticeboard to write. OH OH! Have I not mention that I could hear jingwen talking when I was on my way down the staircase [behind/beside the lift]. I suppose saxophone train your lungs well huh? Actually, theclique is an amazing bunch of people with great potential to make great amount of sound [I try not to term it as noise] as simply as a reflex action. While waiting for my turn to write on the card, thought of sitting down. Then I caught sight of this interesting "today" newspaper stand with an interesting notice of "special edition; today newspaper will be available at xx.xx time on xx date…"[something like that]. And the stand is empty. So at first I thought of sitting there but then later I seem like the "special edition" the newspaper is talking about. LOL. Kinda corny but then quite funny sia. So we [danz, Jason and i] thought of putting the cake there. Then Daniel said someone went to shoo him away as that guy suspect that Daniel is up to no good. ROFL. Hmm. To danz: did you give some sort of sinister look then?

 

We moved out to take bus 293 shortly after [short as in relative to other waiting time with theclique] everyone is there. Damn heng sia. Reached there then the bus was about to move. Luckily the driver 好人, wait for us to board. So up we went [I wonder if the driver regret letting us up or not, based on the high amplitude sound waves we generate. LOL. Vayl got depressed that no one choose to sit with her. But isn't it good, get more space leh. And I got to burden Jason with my bag because I got to hold the cold cake [condensation at the bottom of the cake = wet]. We got down and then we stone at the bus stop. LOL!!! Because we got to wait for jing hui and vayl to finish the card. Heard that they got to fill up a huge space on the card. Though of sitting down again. Rofl. I suggested that we sit down at the bus stop's seats but Jason correctly pointed out that it may make people think that we are waiting for the bus. So we went to sit at the railing. Soon, we were given the que to move out. Girls moved up first followed by the guys in another lift. So all the girls squeeze into one lift and the door closed. Imagine the lift goes downwards instead steadily. The thought of it is kinda funny. But if it really happens I think it will be kinda worrying.

 

When we were all up, then there was a huge discussion on how we are going to get the cake in. I am quite confident that we were discussing at a volume audible from fengba's house. By the way we were discussing on how we can get a lighter to light the cake candle [lol, what an error]. So I suggested that I shall stay back with the cake and pretend that I came later then someone go in and kap the lighter. And it worked well. =) but there was one prob. THE WIND IS TOO STRONG. The candle cannot stay burning into fengba's house. So yokesan, jing hui and I were standbying at the side of the door. VERY COMICAL. We actually thought that we can go in le, then we were told to fall back because fengba getting drinks for them. So we practically waddled to the front door and then backstepped back. Ahha. Then later we were buzy lighting the candle again. And this time the very naughty cake kissed my white shirt. AND IT IS A CHOCOLATE CAKE!! GOSH!!!. Luckily can wash away sia. Left a little stain nia. HENG. We went in and the singing started. =) turned out quite well. =) for the rest of the time spend there, can be summarized as guys: arshole taidi, gals: spam photos and me a third person enjoying life in "play" mode. I don't really like to play cards so I didn't join the guys with the cards. Me and jing hui were with the gals playing some catching mouse game. Kinda interesting. Esp the "yay" part. Really quite comical. Realised that eye contact very important. I got to admit that I lost count every single time, hence, all the time I is see people going to yay then yay de. But I realized that if u look at people with more confidence and do the "yay" then people may follow also. HAHA. Perhaps that's why jiexin got so much forfeit. Then in the end, jiexin, Valerie and Jamie got to do "kaching". Though I am a SC, but I got no clue how to play that game. Ok, more of I don't know how one is going to turn out to be but I got to enjoy watching one today. =) LOL. Jamie got forfeited because of coming in to kajiao. Funny sia. Then the rest was gals drooling at handsome Korean/jap boybands dancing on some mtv, while guys continue with taidi. Realized my brain was kinda shuting down. But there were great entertainment to keep me awake. Haha. Lesson recapped: it is IMPOSSIBLE to get pair photos if cameraman takes more than 5seconds to press the button. Beware jinghui. He can be in any photos anytime. ROFL! I suppose I will look sleepy in most of the photos. Btw, out of my whole set of clothings, only my shirt is new. =) shall give a summary about CNY next time.

 

Everyone started to take pair photos so we got lots of 1+1 p&c shots. I suppose they will bring back fond memories. There will hardly be time that everyone will be able to meet up. Guess most of us are somehow feeling this way, hence reasoning the spamming of photos. Such thoughts are depressing. Great team of friends. Confident that we will be in contact for a long long long long long long long.. pant. Long long long long time. =) too bad. I aint no camera so = no photos. Shoutout to nice gals who brought their cam: SEND ME THE PHOTOS!!! Realized that my sis zihui is really good at taking self shots!! Talented. Soon, we 摇来摇去 and decided that we should leave. And then we did not leave. Just continue to 摇. LOL. Finally we slowly moved out. Fengba left us a note to bring along our "partners" next time. GOSH. So fatherly. Haha. Btw, np cadet inspectors came to fengba's house too. We even made them help us take photos. LOL. Imagine that during np days. Sir, please help us take photo. Hahahaha.

 

Theclique moved off for aaron's house and then Amelia house. But sadly, I got to leave for where I am now. I am sitting in a room alone and happily blogging. Shall go revise chem or bio after this. Or perhaps go to sleep. =) I can seem to smell the ghost of headache nearby. Was joking that I drowned "headache" in the sea and now it's ghost is coming to haunt me. Lolz. Got lots of nice pic for cny. Shall figure out how to get them here using Microsoft word. At night still have dinner and family planning to go to river angbao. More photos! =) wonder if I can last through the day. So many stuff yet to be done. This CNY is really different feel from the others. Realized that I am not exactly in a festive mood but neither am I in homework mood. Just feel like thinking and thinking. =) realized that I enjoy thinking. Oh! And regarding the previous post, I am fine thanks. They are just thoughts going through my head then. I am no quitter and I definitely don't run away from problems. I think differently from the masses. I wonder if it is healthy. Haha..

 

 

 

 

Love the song "way back into love"… =) just keep looping. Here it goes. Not very imba/chionging song but then ncie melody accompanied with nice music and together they create a kinda nice mood and feeling. =) love music.

Way Back Into Love

(Drew Barrymore)
I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oooooh.

(Drew Barrymore)
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh

(Drew Barrymore)
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
Oooooooh.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Take care and rest well to all.. =) [timecheck: 5plus in the afternoon]

 

 

Now is 1213 le.. gee.. just reached home.. must come home then have internet to post.. =)

Good morning world.. may I chiong finish all my work tomorrow.. 5 days break, half a day useful nia.. T.T

 

Trust.

 

Reached home really late yesterday. 12 plus sia. Hm. But kinda glad that the day ended in a relatively nice way.

 

Realized that I am a loser to a large extend. I suck in most stuff. Studies, checked. Sports, checked. And ah! Music, CHECKEd. A proposed solution, buddy day. We mug together, tat's for studies. I swim then, so sports checked. Music, we practice guitar then so I suppose it is helpful too.

 

Glad that finally cny is here. This time is not because of the festive mood but more of looking forward to this break so that I can catch up with my work. I did not even choose a single of my new year cloths or whatsoever.

 

Yesterday is indeed a long long day. Got upset by myself. 1^st was due to chemistry test. But that was kinda expected. The other was for guitar. Realized that I have managed to gain their trust that I cannot complete a song with consist for 3 chords. i know the chords are difficult. Initially, I was supposed to play the guitar with people as back up; just in case I really cannot make it. Thanks to jing wen for trusting that I may be able to make it. =) but seems like those of higher expectations do not think I should burden myself with one more song. So in the end, I was not even given this chance to try. Shrug. Guess I suck to the point that I don't even deserve to be given this chance to try. No, they did not say this. Just my personal implication. Seems like there is seriously nothing I can contribute to guitar club le. I have officially become the person playing the least songs. And that is the minimum number of songs. I wonder if there is a need for me to stay there. I am not even needed. More of a liability, waste people time to teach me how to play properly, make people pissed because of my noob standard. They must be stress now that the concert is drawing nearer and with people of my shit standard they bounded to get pissed. I am sorry. Perhaps you may say that I have not tried hard enough? How hard is hard enough? There is never enough. At least I think so. Perhaps till the point of death should I say that's enough? Was wondering what will the concert be like without; nothing more than an empty seat. Oh yar, it will be with lesser errors too. Furthermore, I sit in the center so lag one person oso cannot see de. =)

 

Glad that there was this long bus trip to parkway to let me tune my mood for jts. MANY THANKZ TO JUNIORS FOR THE MEAL!!! Shall blog abt it when I have the photos? Took many many funny ones sia. Hahahhaa. It's Chinese new year eve. And I should be smiling. So aye. Smile. =)

 

Love the lyrics of this song. Understanding.

世界末日 - jay

作词:周杰伦作曲:周杰伦

想笑来伪装掉下的眼泪
点点头承认自己会怕黑
我只求能借一点的时间来陪
你却连同情都不给
想哭来试探自己麻痹了没
全世界好像只有我疲惫
无所谓反正难过就敷衍走一回
但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞

天灰灰会不会
让我忘了你是谁
夜越黑梦违背
难追难回味
我的世界将被摧毁
也许事与愿违

累不累睡不睡
单影无人相依偎
夜越黑梦违背
有谁肯安慰
我的世界将被摧毁
也许颓废也是另一种美

 

Thankz to angle for the wonderful pineapple tart. Make me feel guilty about not giving my mortal anything yet. Thankz yun shan for the lollipop. Thanks junli for the reminder + 陪我谈心. Thanks min quan for trying to cheer me up. Thanks juniors for the dinner. Thanks 4h for the great sing along session, and pardon u pple ears cuz of me. =)

 

 

 

 

 

 

~*我就只要那段最美的回忆*~

我终于生病了.. =)

Reached home at last.. shall make this a really short one. Hope that I can finish it in like 5 minutes. =)

 

Today had been an interesting experience. Since orientation [seem so long ago yet again, like yesterday], have been enjoying frequent headaches. And perhaps due to the lack of sufficient quality rest, the magnitude and frequency of it occurring just increases with time. Tagged along with other aches like stomach and muscle aches, they can be rather disruptive to one's focus at times. I am suspecting that I have some problem with my digestive system but shall leave that aside. xP

 

Was feeling like puking the whole of last night and then resulting in a really bad night. I suppose that reasons to the bad headache this morning. In fact, I decided to go to sleep at 9 plus last night since I was feeling kinda bad. But seems like that didn't help eh? Rest well. Gee, this is really important! So in the end, I just sleep and sleep and sleep. Till 11plus; after being woke up[was actually awake le, more of being called to get out of bed] at 6am by dad, messaged yiwei to report my absence in school, and pop back to sleep. Was hoping that I will be able to be fit enough to go back to school to take the maths test and also mock spa [though was kinda unprepared for either]. So there I go sleeping like nobody's business. xP woke up and head felt lighter and YES! I am ready for school. Feel like I am back in primary school attending afternoon session. LOL. I even get to eat lunch cooked by my mom!!! =) what a blessing, compared with canteen food. Bathed and check my handphone. WOAH! So 感人! Many messages wishing me well. =) shall leave all the thankz giving to a later paragraph. =D After having lunch and packing my stuff into the NUS log bag [gee, I LOVE this bag sia.. =D] cuz I decided to wash my bagpack [which I also LOVE dearly], set off for school. Legs were feeling kinda jelly-like but nvm, was kinda excited to go back to school. LOL! Don't ask me why, perhaps "school-sick"? so took 359 to mrt station and missed the mrt. But didn't care much. Got onto the next train and found a sit. And so I sat! gee. That's lame. So I tried studying for mock spa. Err.. tried lar. I feel asleep at the third station. HAHAHA. Then wake up, then piak, fall asleep again. Luckily have sms to keep me awake. =) there was this old man who board the train but without a sit. Then he walked away before I can go call out to him. Then in the end, another person offered the sit which is good but then again I felt kinda guilty. A young guy like me should not be sitting ba. I suppose it is also due to my lowed reaction due to my groggy state. Then later another old woman board the train. This time I was faster. But still nto fast enough. I placed my bag on the sit and then walk up to the lady. And the person in front of her offered her the sit. So I decided to return that man the sit. So it was kinda awkward. But nvm. What's more interesting was, the old woman left at the next station. =) I suppose she dun wan to 辜负 that man's 好意. I cant imagine my balance was so crap then. Was like swaying with the whole train. =.= jelly-legged. Reached school and received an exaggerated welcome from Eddy. ROFL. Kinda comical. Leaving jing wen totally puzzled. That formed one big question mark. She tried to clearify her doubts, only to gained more in return when yiwei replied "感情是不拥有理由的". Rofl! Cliché sia. Moved off to the lab to do mock spa. This time was not as bad as the previous ba, but I hope that I can get some bonus marks for creativity. LOL. Shrug. I suppose science is not about creativity ba.bleh. was hoping to do maths test during mass pe but yiwei relied the message from mrs chan saying that it is not possible. So got to go for mass pe lo.

 

Then this very interesting thing happened. It started off with berlinda.
    Berlinda: 不要换衣阿?
    Me: 我生病 =)
    berlinda: 相思病啊?

And next was Mr Tang.
    Mr Tang: hey roy, why not changed? Never bring pe? Or sick?
    me: sick
    Mr Tang: 相思病啊?

ROFL! Just as he said that, Berlinda was beside me. And she offered me a reason for them saying the same thing: I got that face. -_-

 

Just as I thought that it was the end, here come mr siva.
    Mr Siva: roy! Sick ah?    [and before I can reply,] love sick?
    me: nope
    Mr Siva: it is good to be love sick at times
    me: ??!!?!?!?!?!

Hahaha. Was kinda comical. I meant, it was comical. So my job was taking attendance for the people there. I finished the guys' kinda fast. But it was scary doing the girls one. Gee. Suddenly one whole bunch of girls got do their sets. Don't even know how to start. But eventually completed it. =)

 

Oh damn. I exceeded my time again. Gee. Hahaha. I was taken aback by the sudden information that there is guitar practice today. But in the end it wasn't really much of a practice. I guess yiwei felt cheated. Lolz. Got the guitars out of sc room. Thankz to pingyen and xinzi. Then gastric all of a sudden so kinda dragged yiwei to ghim moh to eat with me. He went there to get his [take a deep breathe] ~WAFFLE*. Lolz. That is suppose to a high pitch cute "scream"? posing yiwei. Haha. After that, went to obs course to enjoy the sky. Jing hui and danz came [yes in a pair] followed by yiwei. Caught sight of np pple washing some stuff at the tap beside the volleyball court. =) brought back some pleasant foamy memories. Hahhaa. Then there was this wrestling/posing 霍元甲competition. Kinda entertaining. Met jing wen and got my bio notes. No offends, yiwei notes are superbly summaries [cuz he know the rest of the info le], so got to get someone else. And jingwen gave me a good summary about how the lecture proceeded. =) thankz. I suppose there are more than just story telling in jingwen sia.

 

Left right after that and got into the car which mom and dad were waiting in. we went to ghim moh to eat dinner. I was holding my mom's hand and then this bunch of dhs girls were smiling at me [I smiled back]. LOL. Wasn't ashame of anything. In fact I am proud that I still hold my parents hands, kiss them goodnight and goodbye. =) what if some day I were to leave this world all of a sudden? I will not regret that I have not expressed how much I love my parents. =) kinda mushy eh? Was thinking about lots of stuff all these while. Shall not type them out or it will take up lots of my time. xP if I were to be asked to summarize "life" with a word, that will be "decisions". =) having a clear goal ahead to work towards, I often question myself if I am really trying hard. Or hard enough. Can I take care of myself and the stuff I do well enough? Why do I have to let others worry about certain stuff regarding me? Gee. But I am really grateful that I have lots of great friends and supportive family members to back me up and provide me with the nutrients to grow. Though there is definitely no one who will understand me 100% but it is the thoughts that's really touching. Yes, move on for thankz giving paragraph.

 

1^st, thanks to all those who msged me well wishes of getting well. 2^nd, thanks to yiwei for informing mrs chan about my absence, accompanying me to ghim moh and also help me wash the dirtied set of pe kit I lend you. 3^rd, thanks to people who messaged me when I am in the train so that I don't oversleep. 4^th, thanks mom for making me nice lunch and buying breakfast back for me. 5^th, thanks to pingyen and xinzi for helping me carry the guitars in the sc room to guitar room. 6^th, thanks to keng hoe, bao jia, mengshuen, jing hui and yunshan for the Chinese new year cards. 7^th, thanks to jing wen for the bio notes. 8^th, thanks jing hui, yiwei and danz for accompanying me to obs course. 9^th, thanks mom and dad for the nice trip back home. 10^th, thanks to all who had showed care and concern to me, make me accomplish things I would not have been able to accomplish by myself [physically and psychologically].. [shall stop at 10].. THANKZ!!!! 谢谢.

 

 

 

 

 

Hereby wishing all happy Chinese new year!!! 心想事成，身体健康.. and all year 6s, ACE FOR A LVLs!!! WOOSH!!!

 

To the world: take care and rest well.. =)