I cannot put my feelings to words. It is just too complicated. Too conflicting. Perhaps it is due to me being too tired, or something else. Shrug. One side of me seem to want to do so much and so much while the other side is switching off. Like of now, so many homework awaits me and one part of me is drawn to tackle them while the other is practically shutting down.
Aye. Today is buddy day no.X. I lost count [actually I wasn't even counting because it is a long term thing] hence naming it X. Tien Leng did not join us because there's SJ, and in other words, no photos. But anyway, not like I am going to use any photos because I have yet to learn how to add photos here [Microsoft words] and post it straight. Reached home really late and was really full. That's dinner with Kevin and my fellow guitar mates, danz and eddy. As usual, we were talking about life and stress, constantly spiced up with kevin's complain of the tendergrill being carbon chicken. Oh yar, forgot to mention that we were eating in burgerking [realised that whitesands got a great variety of food provider [cannot think of a better word; was thinking of econ's goods and services]. After guitar, we [danz, eddy and yiwei] are suppose to take his [Kevin] car to a place for dinner. But in the end, we let the juniors, who are carrying like so many guitars, and min hua take his car. I guess they need it more than us guys. =]
It was really a ling way back to pasir ris, the place which we decide to have our dinner. It is evident that all of us are all beat and weary. So much so that we started doing weird stuff like ermz… taking photos and………. yiwei licking people??!?!?! And we had a sing aloud session which earned us quite some stares from the public which we conveniently choose to ignore due to our tired and hungry state. When we finally reached whitesands [yiwei went home to eat… hope he did not lick his way back home], all shocked to realised that in fact, Kevin is not here yet!!!!! O.o Haha. So we went to the wangzai at the 3rd storey. And upon sitting down, we were informed almost in interval of 1second that they have closed shop. It goes like this: "我们要关店了，现在只有面 [one second interval]. Oh, 对不起。买完了。" >.< and we only just sat down. We spent the remaining time deciding on a place to eat and us being all hungry, was ok with any place so in the end it ended up with no place. Till finally, Kevin arrived, we settled down for bk [Kevin said it had been some time since he last ate it]. We got our respective meals and in the end, all the fries were emptied onto a try and of which is made up of 3 large and one small pack. And it forms a huge mountain. Kevin then shared his experience with some AP snooker shop. To keep things simple, moral of the story: don't mess with Kevin. ROFL! Joking. ACTUAL moral of the story: learn to be considerate.
Eddy still got to take train home, but it's ok, so said danz, cuz he got sms to accompany him. Then me and danz took his car home cuz on the way. Took notice of the really beautiful and bright moon. I feel that I can just stare my night away. I meant stare at the moon. Then Kevin was shaking his head in the car, terming us emo king and prince. LOL. Then we shot back a claim of him staring at his lava lamp for hours. ROFL.
Woke up at 9 plus and still felt totally drained. Realized that I was the only person at home as all other family members had left the house. Really nice of them to let me continue to sleep, though I stil damn tired. Really appreciate. =)
Was the first to reach for buddy day! Gosh! Amazing and then started with carbonyl and eventually finishing and also gp reflection before going for lunch which was by then 3. Ate at Loyang and was as usual, mac-chicken extra lettuce. I got two of that [not the set, as I am kinda sick of fries due to yesterday] while they each got a set. We then moved off to the bread shop nearby and felt an amplified pinched on our pockets. The breads sold were all about 1.10 and they were all so many times bigger than a mac-chicken. Lolz. Yiwei got a picture of the bread being approximately the size of his face. ROFL!
We were all a tired bunch of people. And evident from us sprouting nonsense to boost each other's moral. Hahaha. I guess I have stoned enough. I can hardly keep my posture straight. Yes, I am shutting down. I have this weird urge to scream something like "shut up" whenever it gets a little more noisy. I wonder why there is this very violent side of me hidden within. Sometimes I just walk away, too tired to talk, too tired to care about anything besides nature. Feel as though I am missing out all the details of nature while chionging. Fantasize on a day of which I can just stone at the breakwater for a day by myself, enjoy the wind, enjoy the music of nature and sort out my thoughts then. Progress into the night, enjoy the night sky, count the stars and stare at the moon. Stare into the dark void of the empty woods, then back at the sea illuminated by the light from the passing vessels. Enjoy the moisture in the cool and salty breeze……
Yet such luxury will never be possible, considering our all filled up schedule. Even the up coming break is kinda filled up… haiz. Looking back, was kinda regretful that I have not chiong as hard since the last long break. [on the other hand, I may hav snapped by no if I had started since then]. Aye, there are too many "if only"s in life.. more importantly, life goes on.. so aye, we go to move on too. Fuel myself and get going again.
=)
~First, you say you won't, then you say you will.
You keep me hanging on, and we're not moving on.*
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