Trust.

 

Reached home really late yesterday. 12 plus sia. Hm. But kinda glad that the day ended in a relatively nice way.

 

Realized that I am a loser to a large extend. I suck in most stuff. Studies, checked. Sports, checked. And ah! Music, CHECKEd. A proposed solution, buddy day. We mug together, tat's for studies. I swim then, so sports checked. Music, we practice guitar then so I suppose it is helpful too.

 

Glad that finally cny is here. This time is not because of the festive mood but more of looking forward to this break so that I can catch up with my work. I did not even choose a single of my new year cloths or whatsoever.

 

Yesterday is indeed a long long day. Got upset by myself. 1^st was due to chemistry test. But that was kinda expected. The other was for guitar. Realized that I have managed to gain their trust that I cannot complete a song with consist for 3 chords. i know the chords are difficult. Initially, I was supposed to play the guitar with people as back up; just in case I really cannot make it. Thanks to jing wen for trusting that I may be able to make it. =) but seems like those of higher expectations do not think I should burden myself with one more song. So in the end, I was not even given this chance to try. Shrug. Guess I suck to the point that I don't even deserve to be given this chance to try. No, they did not say this. Just my personal implication. Seems like there is seriously nothing I can contribute to guitar club le. I have officially become the person playing the least songs. And that is the minimum number of songs. I wonder if there is a need for me to stay there. I am not even needed. More of a liability, waste people time to teach me how to play properly, make people pissed because of my noob standard. They must be stress now that the concert is drawing nearer and with people of my shit standard they bounded to get pissed. I am sorry. Perhaps you may say that I have not tried hard enough? How hard is hard enough? There is never enough. At least I think so. Perhaps till the point of death should I say that's enough? Was wondering what will the concert be like without; nothing more than an empty seat. Oh yar, it will be with lesser errors too. Furthermore, I sit in the center so lag one person oso cannot see de. =)

 

Glad that there was this long bus trip to parkway to let me tune my mood for jts. MANY THANKZ TO JUNIORS FOR THE MEAL!!! Shall blog abt it when I have the photos? Took many many funny ones sia. Hahahhaa. It's Chinese new year eve. And I should be smiling. So aye. Smile. =)

 

Love the lyrics of this song. Understanding.

世界末日 - jay

作词:周杰伦作曲:周杰伦

想笑来伪装掉下的眼泪
点点头承认自己会怕黑
我只求能借一点的时间来陪
你却连同情都不给
想哭来试探自己麻痹了没
全世界好像只有我疲惫
无所谓反正难过就敷衍走一回
但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞

天灰灰会不会
让我忘了你是谁
夜越黑梦违背
难追难回味
我的世界将被摧毁
也许事与愿违

累不累睡不睡
单影无人相依偎
夜越黑梦违背
有谁肯安慰
我的世界将被摧毁
也许颓废也是另一种美

 

Thankz to angle for the wonderful pineapple tart. Make me feel guilty about not giving my mortal anything yet. Thankz yun shan for the lollipop. Thanks junli for the reminder + 陪我谈心. Thanks min quan for trying to cheer me up. Thanks juniors for the dinner. Thanks 4h for the great sing along session, and pardon u pple ears cuz of me. =)

 

 

 

 

 

 

~*我就只要那段最美的回忆*~