Short post here. I am getting the hang of it… =)
Nowadays, with the results from tests and the huge amount of homework, it is getting drilled into my head that yes, it is time for "no life" mode. Was complaining that I have no life or what so ever but now is serious. Just do whatever should be done and CHIONG in everything sia.
Amazingly, I slept at 9plus yesterday. I meant I was planning to do so till food came home with mom and dad. Expensive sushi. Asked if can keep for the next day and the answer was no. so got to eat. I usually cannot sleep with a filled stomach. And by the way, decided to sleep at 9 because for the whole day, I was unable to focus. Heavy-headed. Get really breathless at times of the day [like now]. Chest pain. >.<
Woke up at 6, though I plan to wake up at 3 [alarm didn't wake me up], feeling weird. One part of me is feeling really sick, yet the sick side of me was masked by a some what cheerful side of me. I just felt, well, happy! [Crazy Boy!] I think so sia, I am getting kixiao I think. Lolz. The day proceeded fine. Besides the few pokes regarding my shortened hair [some are quite funny], it's just another fine day. =)
Gotten back bio test. Yups, another reminder for me to buck up. =) they just seem to all unite and shout sense into me… or I should say, chant "mug" in my ears. Yes, there are hell lots of stuff on my list to be done. I realised that I have been planning like what I can do like anytime and anywhere if I have the time. Catching up is really hard; first you got to do the stuff now and secondly you are required to do the lagging stuffs. Learning to see each and every piece of work as a learning tool. Afterall, it is A levels that really matters rite? Personally I think there is more than that. I think that it is how lessons on coping with stress, and more importantly, the attitude in life that is of most importance, but well, A levels don't test that. Shrug.
As much as I love to be alone, there are always great supports from my friends and family. Great, fun and interesting stuffs happen in school and spicing up my life, credits to my ever entertaining bunch of buddies. Love school. On the other hand, home is a place I love to return to. Yet, 很遗憾的是, upon reaching home, will be stucked to the mentality of doing work or take a break. Upon times of stress, I just get too quiet [as in I don't talk to people and don't want people to talk to me]. When asked a question, I then to reply softly [I guess] so much so that I need to repeat like 5 times before it is understood/heard. In the process, friction occurs. Common stuff like being asked to take dinner, and aye, I chiong through my meals, which is bad. Realized that I am spending lesser and lesser time with family. Thanks to them for being ever-so-understanding or at least they tried. =) grateful.
Hope that through all these chionging and pia-ing, I will stay me and stay humane. I am kinda afraid that I may eventually lose sight of myself, who I am or what I use to be, the things I hold on to… I guess that is why I like to emo and again, emo doesn't mean feeling sad or what but just reflecting. =) enjoy reflecting upon myself.
Shall go for the personal reflection part in my diary. =)
Roy loves to 保持沉默. Glad that I managed to complete econs reflection when the canteen was all banging [lion dance]. Not that I don't like the lion dance but aye, my ears hurt. >.< level jacket is sure useful. =)
~I will meet you when my chores are through*
Side note for bj: no worries, that's what's exco is for.. don't go too hard on yourself eh? Take care lo!! =)
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