underachieving..

 

this was the word that appeared most from the conversation xinzi when we [me and him] set off for lunch together.. Can indeed feel the tint of a little regret and definitely disappointment in his tone, but since you are aware of it / feels this way, you are bound to do something and that is the most crucial part of everything i guess. After all, the main goal is still that november BIG thing. Hence, cheer up and speed on ZHOU!

 

I can't say that i am underachieving in anyway because i am unsure of how much i can achieve. In fact, i think that i am really not a smart person. I made it for PSLE by working really hard and my memory is not as good as the average i guess, hence my poor result for history [a subject which i can never make it]. I got to say that i am rather surprised by the school allowing me to take my triple science combination. I got to say that it is indeed the one of the toughest combination one can get for the pre-uni education. The whole series of SPAs have just ended [phew] and now, it will be time for loads of practices and revisions. Heard this some where; "会考"就是考你会不会考.. and i think that it is certainly really true. I got to admit that not am i not of high capability in brain terms, i suck at exams. Mental blocks and ridiculous careless mistakes rob me of already pathetic mark.. I guess this is the reason for my low low scores. Well, yes, i got to do something about it. Nonetheless, i seriously thinks that examinations set the wrong tone for "learning". Perhaps the good part of them is that they motivate [a better word for "force"] students to study since the marks are of really high significance [high marks, you are good; low grades, you are poor]. But i seriously think that in spite of this motivation, there is something not right about exams. Learning should be due to the want for knowledge, not so much of the overly focused "exam smart" techniques. I guess this is a limitation which cannot be solve. Society stills require such grading system i guess.

 

I seriously cannot picture myself getting straight As.. but somehow, i got to make it..

 

 

today is the last day for the full moon of this moon cycle. Yet the moon is hidden from my view. Too cloudy i guess. Or perhaps it has yet to rise.

 

feels weird today.. 心里一直存在着一种空虚，但又不知它的起因.. well, i shall sleep on it....

 

 

oh yar.. GOOD LUCK FOR SPA

PHYSICS PEOPLE!!!!! you people will need it i guess.. xP

 

 

李圣杰-远走高飞-歌词

爱你错了吗
为什么会受到这么多惩罚
他们说的话像针往心里扎
我心中的怕
不知该怎么做才可以放下
只不过想好好的爱一次啊
带我远走高飞
不去理会
这一个蜚短流长的世界布满虚伪
是你让我选择沉醉
繁星守侯月不能睡
只因为爱上了夜的黑
带我远走高飞
一起去追
有一个叫做幸福的世界没有泪水
我已经感觉到疲累
只想在你怀抱入睡
不在乎别人眼中是非
重新再出发
能不能让这天地不再吵杂
我的心里面安静得不像话
故事的真假
没有多余的力气去分辨他
只不过想好好的爱一次啊

 

THE MOON IS OUT!!! EMBER!! damn it.. i got no imba camera.. T.T

 

~see that orange spot? YES! that is the moon!!!

~ a feeble attempt for a zoom.. [how i wish i got an imba cam like the photographers - mr chia/cms]

 

seems like it has indeed risen later.. Dad will be coming home today.. That spells the end of my solo journeys to school [which was rather enjoying] and i guess i will be spoilt by the luxury to wake up later now that car can travel and reach school faster. But shall remember the experience and learn to be appreciative of how fortunate i am; and not grumble about how i may not be of standard with others in terms of certain material aspect..

 

 

蜚短流长的世界布满虚伪 contrasted with

叫做幸福的世界没有泪水.. truth vs ideal? well, does it matter how we term things at all?

 

 

~爱上了夜的黑*